(Lu's residence, midnight)
Lu Yuxi was walking beside her residence, over the closed bridge above, wearing blue clothes and a crown. She turned her head slightly while on the bridge, and said in a harsh tone, "Show yourself."
Shuxin got down and stood on the bridge railing, but was met with a sword at her neck. Shushin looked at the sword and then Yu Xi, "What are you doing? Do you want to kill me so that I don't take the crown from you?"
Yu Xi's eyes widened, "Shuchen?"
"What? You thought I might die easily?"
"True...it is not your habit to die without hearing about some injuries."
Shushin smiled as she moved Yu Xi's sword away from her neck, "Well...thanks, if that's a compliment?"
Yu Xi gave her a cold look, Shushin said, "Well, I guess it wasn't like that..."
"Rest, you must be tired and recovering. You have met death in the end. Get ready to take the crown after you rest."
"Who said I would take it?"
"What do you mean? This is your responsibility."
"You are more responsible than me. The people love you more than me."
"This is nonsense kids, who cares?"
"Lu Yu Xi, I can give you a hundred, no a thousand reasons why I can't become a queen. Sometimes I'm too merciful and sometimes I'm too cruel, and I'm also spiteful and I can't let go of my pain, and I can't forget the past, so how can a fragile soul like me save the world in a respectful way? I can only be a violent demon."
Yu Xi sighed, "I only believe what I see, and the one in front of me is not even close to being a level one demon."
I approached Yu Xi, and my eyes began to take on the color of blood, "Beautiful, isn't it? Even the color of death is present in my eyes."
Yu Xi was silent, "You can take the ruling, but I would like to make an exception."
"What?" Yu Xi asked in confusion.
"As long as I don't kill anyone, let me do whatever I want and don't control me and my decisions, you and the royal family."
"This doesn't seem very comfortable."
"Don't be afraid, sister."
"I am not your sister."
We heard someone's voice coming, "Then bye, see you soon."
"She's very stubborn... Don't give me choices, this only means i have no choice..."
(Next day, meeting hall)
It was the day the royal family was meeting for some business when a guard entered, looking a little hesitant and frightened as he looked at Tian Yang, who was sitting in a chair upstairs next to Lu Yuxi. Yu Xi spoke, "What do you want?"
"Hmm.. yes.. some of the guards say that some of the people were afraid and kept saying that there is some ghost in the city."
"Ghost? What nonsense?"
The guard hesitated, "They say the ghost is a woman wearing a red hanfu, walking around."
Yu Xi sighed, "Ah.. She wanted to take advantage of me with her misfortunes.. That damned..." Yu Xi whispered and then looked at Tian Yang, whose eyes widened, already knowing what he was thinking.
The woman with the red hanfu entered. When the guard noticed her, he screamed, threw himself on the ground, and then ran out. Everyone was in shock. Shushin looked at the guard, "Yu xi, how did you hire this guard? He's so ridiculous?"
Yu Xi sighed, "I don't even want to answer you."
Tianyang was sitting there in silence, he hated her and loved her with the same depth. To the others, they were confused. Even if this was a world ruled by magic, the miracles that came about because of her, were shocking and ceaseless, shocking them more and more every time.
"I have a request, Your Majesty."
Yu Xi rolled her eyes, "Just talk already."
Shushen looked at the ground, then raised her head, "I came here today because I am no longer a queen, but I am still a member of the royal family. This is ridiculous. So, Please, take my position."
Yu Xi's expression was astonished. Yesterday, she had accepted her reality and that Shuxin was determined not to be a queen, but now her words seemed meaningless, "I know you may not be interested in what I'm gonna say, but we are born with pride, and something that others cannot obtain, status, reputation, money. And skills, you are not giving up an important government position, or a job that supports your life, but rather you are giving up your origin, your principles, you are giving up... your family." Yu xi said the last sentence, with great hesitation, despite the lack of her relationship with Shushen, if Shushen had said that she doesn't care about the family, even though it's obvious to everyone, it wouldn't be nice.
Shuxin smiled, even she was able to see what she meant, "Indeed, you are right, maybe my actions mean that I am abandoning you, but I don't, from the beginning I didn't think I had anything, and now I will leave, and go everywhere, until I find a place that looks like… A suitable place to die. We humans search for a place where we can die happy. We want people to think we lived a worthwhile life, so I will not regret leaving. No one really has the choice to leave and stay, but I know, I will miss this place forever."
Everyone was shocked by her request to give up being a princess, especially Tian Yang, as she ignored him and acted in a way that showed that she did not need him either.
Yu Xi closed her eyes and sighed, "Okay."
Tian Yang said firmly to Yu Xi, "What are you doing now?"
Shushin looked at them and smiled, "I never felt like this before, but I feel worthless now. How miserable. It turns out that I was right in the end. Whenever someone told me that staying was the right solution, I would get very angry inside, saying that this was not my place. My whole life seemed like a search for the truth, or a shadow of security that would make me feel warm, but I only befriended lies. So I'm going to go now and tell those lies."
Shi Jin looked at her firmly, "Are you sure of your decision? I will support you no matter what you decide."
She nodded to him, and he nodded to her as well, and raised his hands, "I agree."
She looked at Lu Yuxi, "From now on, I will cut my ties with you once and for all, but when you need me, I guess, I will still come from the other side of the world for you, but if someone tries to interfere in my life...it will mean fighting." She finished the sentence by looking at Lu Yuxin. Who smiled at her words.
Shushin bowed, "Goodbye. Until we meet again."
This was a definite freedom, and any misfortune would have been due to her alone.
"You can leave if you want, to the farthest place, you can even cross the sky, Shushin, but the thing that runs inside you, this burning blood, you cannot get rid of it." Yu Xin said
"How much must be given up for my blood to be said to be pure? How much is enough for me to be free from you? And from this place?" Shushin answered
Tian Yang was surprised, he knew that her inner self was too difficult and too deep for someone like him to understand, but he saw determination in her eyes, eyes that were never sure of what was between them, so he knew then, or -realized then- that she did not love another man, so she wandered in her imagination, staying up at night thinking about him, but what really stole sleep from her eyes was her desire for liberation, and although he realized that, he felt sorry for her: he realized that he, who had clear insight, could not find happiness, Shushin was a bird imprisoned in an open cage, placed in a tightly locked room, so what was the benefit of escaping from the cage?
In the end she can't really escape from eternal prison.
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I was in my room getting some of my things when I felt something behind me. I quickly turned around to find Tian Yang. I sighed, "Oh. Is that you?"
"This is the first time I feel that you are selfish."
I looked at him coldly, then smiled, "True, even I, I can finally give up everyone for myself now."
He looked at me sadly, "Don't you even love me a little? Maybe if you did, you would be a little confident enough to come and tell me to come with you."
"My way, different from yours. You are a king, you are a noble, I am nothing now, I am a devil, I am selfish, and ruin comes with me. I want to be free. I want to be alone now and learn more about the world. I want to love and be loved."
He said in a loud and angry tone, "Your way is my way. I became all of this just for you and all of this means nothing without you."
I sighed, "That's the problem, I'm fighting for myself and you're fighting for me, so I'm leaving for me and for you, you should look for a life that's all yours."
"Can't you just take care of yourself and allow me to take care of myself? Whether I love you or hate you? Whether you leave or stay?"
"Leaving will be a lie and staying will also be a lie, whether i do this or this, I'd be lying anyway,
Saying i love you, or i don't love you, will just be another lies of mine."
"I love you better when you lie.."
"Don't, then you'd have to love me for the rest of your life."
He looked at me and i knew i broke his heart, and what saddened me was that I did not care, and I wanted to leave as quickly as I could. Maybe his sincere love suffocated me.
"I married you as the queen of this country. Now I am no longer a queen, so I am no longer your wife, King. Goodbye."
I left the room, after pushing his hands off me.
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He turned and looked at her. "She left without a trace, and I knew I couldn't hold on to her anymore. She was truly gone for good this time. Although she brought me to this point, I don't know whether I hate her or forgive her, but I definitely feel more sorry for her than I feel for myself."