" Damn it, why can't I get that out of my head" Adeline spoke to herself remembering last night's moment with Jayson, " he looked so much like his father that I actually thought about it for a moment, what the hell was I thinking, if we actually went through with it what would our relationship be like".
Adeline was in a dilemma, no matter how she tried to stay calm, there where moments she would crumble under the feelings of betrayal, anger and pain, every day she would look at zakira and wonder what her husband saw in her to make him cheat. No matter what she taught of nothing made sense for him to leave her for a high school girl, this made her break down sometimes and unfortunately Jayson was there when she broke down last night, his warm embrace and comfort couldn't escape her mind.
She lost her husband in an accident having Vivian as the only child, she tried her best to deal with pain while managing to work and provide for her daughter as well as being there for her as a mother, unknown to her she had build this emotionless experience and demeanor, the pain was still there but she coped with it by constantly keeping herself busy but all that came crashing down when she met Jayson's father, it felt like her savoir had arrived only to shatter her world again, now she was once again trying to keep it all together but she could tell she was slowly loosing her mind once again.
Meanwhile classs where in session, everything was going fine, well except for one person, ever since the incident at the cafe Vanessa felt like Jayson hated her now and that notion only got solidified when she heard Jayson and Tony made up, she guessed because they where guys but for her it was a different case since romantic feelings where involved, but now she just wanted them to go back to being friends, she desperately wanted to apologize so the guilt would stop eating her or at least that's what she told herself. Deep down she couldn't stop thinking about Jayson, something about his new demeanor and attitude just couldn't get off her mind, he wasn't a wimpy kid who got nervous or sweaty when they talked or were alone, he didn't try to hard to stand out as the smartest in class and most of all, when talking he could maintained eye contact, it felt like he had a new sense of confidence and self that made him look way more attractive.
Once school was over Vanessa went straight to Jayson and blocked his path, " we really need to talk" she said her voice cracking, "hey guys why don't we...", "not now tony" vanessa said grabbing my hand she pulled me away, a minute later we were on the roof, on the edge of the roof, close to the ledge, her back turned against me, there was awkward silence before she spoke.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything, if I knew we would be like this I wouldn't have said yes to Tony" she said as she turned around, tears rolling down her cheeks, for a second seeing her in such a state made my heart skip a bit but I kept my composure, I just wanted to get this over with because I was feeling more awkward than pity.
" I'm really sorry for not speaking up, I'm sorry I didn't notice your feelings earlier, I'm so sor....", I couldn't bare it anymore and cut her off with a hug.
"It's going to be alright V, I've forgiven you ok, I've gotten over everything that happened, it's all in the past so you don't need to feel guilty anymore, alright V?".
"She froze for a second but after my speech she hugged her and started crying even more, I hugged her and patted her head.
"You finally called me V" she whispered.
"It's your nickname isn't it?"
"Hehe, let's start afresh, as real friends this time" she said, " give me a new nickname"
I let go off her scratching the back of my head, I was bad with nicknames but thinking a little bit about it gave it a shot.
"How about nessy"
" Hehe I like it" she said with a smile. " Ok then now that that's settled" I said turning around to go home when she held my clothes, " umm c..can we hang out after school? Just the two of us, I still want to talk some more"
"Oh umm I would but I have something planned already so"
" Can it wait pls, we haven't talked in a long time so"
" Sorry maybe next time " I sad as I quickly went off without looking back. I couldn't spend another minute there as I went downstairs pretending not to notice Tony who was hiding behind the door. Whatever they had was their deal, I didn't care about their personal life anymore, for me they were just people I once new.
Heading home was an awkward silent walk as Vivian wasn't talking to me, it seemed she was still upset about what happened with her mom and stuff but that doesn't matter to me anymore. We got home but her mom wasn't around, my father was home and few minutes later he was heading out.
"If your mom doesn't get back in time order any food you want ok" he said as he rushed out, suspecting his sudden departure i downloaded a tracking app and tracked his phone using his number, i got on my bike and immediately rode to his location, it was parked in a hotel's parking lot, I waited and waited for 4hrs before stepping out of the car was zakira, I was beyond shocked after the warning I gave her she didn't listen, I left my dad and followed her, she stopped by an ally way and started crying, I was confused but still angry, while she was crying some guys came up to her, I knew what was about to happen as I heard the conversation followed by screams for help, I wanted to let it happen, I wanted her to suffer, but then what would that make me?
I picked up a near by metal pipe and went out, hitting one guy on the head so hard he started bleeding and hitting another causing him to pass out, the other two ran away in fear with their pants down, zakira was surprised, I'm guessing she didn't expect me to be hear much less save her.
"W..w..what are you doing here Jayson, stalking me again? Don't think I'm happy just because you sa...."
I grabbed her by her collar and pushed her to the wall, " I warned you to stay away from my father didn't I? Yet you still went to him, do you take me for a joke? Do you really think I wouldn't do it!!" I yelled
"No it's not what you think, we just ended things! She said annoyed and a hint of sadness in her voice, " i told him everything, I didn't mention your name but I told him I was being blackmailed and we had to stop, so we ended things" she said but I grabbed her even tighter and slammed her against the wall, the pipe in hand I swung it hitting the wall by the side of her head.
"Do you really take me for a fool? You both did it in the car, I saw it and I can smell his cologne all over you, I've had it with you, I don't care what happens to my father but I'm going to drag your name through the mud for as long as I live!" I said as I walked away
" No wait I'm sorry, we only did it one last time, pls Jayson!"
I rode my bike home and in anger, I got home yet my father wasn't back, in anger i destroyed my room, throwing things around and crying, ( why was this happening, how could my own father be like this ).
That night I woke up, I didn't know when I had slept off, i went past my the scattered stuff in my room and went downstairs to get some water when i met my stepmom drunk and crying.