But he couldn't keep indulging in self-degradation, nor could he accept his own self-degradation.
Becoming someone else's tool, then following commands that might even disregard right and wrong.
Engaging in actions that he might not want to do in his heart.
Merely thinking about it made him feel disgusted from the bottom of his heart.
So what should he do?
When such things truly happen, how should he face them to find a satisfying and acceptable answer?
Quickly calming down, thinking in his mind, he might obtain what feels like the most satisfactory understanding and action towards the problem.
He knew he must not be blind in a very impulsive understanding of the problem.
To arrive at what feels like the most straightforward, clear cognition, and ideal response to the issue.
An emotional display would only give others a handle on his flawed articulation of the problem.
It's better to calm down and then properly consider an ending that can be frankly accepted.
