"It seems that we now have no way to clear these matters up, and if such issues could be so easily clarified, there would be no such thorny difficulties, and you would not have clung to this matter again and again. It appears that in the end, all of this is nothing but the consequences of my own mistakes coming back to haunt me. Had I known that things would end this way, I would never have left your side, no matter what. I would have stayed with you, ensured you lived a life of happiness, which perhaps is the most important thing for anyone. Yet for me, it is a height I can never reach in this lifetime."