I understand now. When my husband asked that question, he was simply seeking a sense of psychological balance. He couldn't accept that the person he loved most fell for someone else, while he was relegated to being the perennial backup. His heart must have been in agony too. But some things can't be forgotten or changed just because you say so. Everyone's life is the path they walk themselves, and the choices I make ultimately decide the final outcome I'll have to face in my lifetime.
"To be honest, I don't know how to explain this to you. When I'm with you, I don't feel that heartbeat-skipping sensation, but when I'm with him, I do because I love her. I would sacrifice anything for her, hoping that I could see him at every moment of my life. Just the ability to see him every day would make me happy. You might not understand what this feels like, but I have no way to describe to you the kind of heart-stirring feeling it is!"
