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Chapter 122 - Got better.

We were stumbling through the dark.

It didn't matter.

We were together...

Arms around each other.

Nothing was better.

Nothing got better.

In any weather.

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You drank a drink or two

While we sat and watched Youtube

I rolled up some Gorilla glue. 

Another buzz to get us through.

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It was a little island of paradise in our minds.

But one of us was destined to be left far behind...

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We rose so quickly

Through the night

And the smog 

And the storm

And the wind

And the rain...

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Wrapped in your arms

I could barely see

The flags and the signs

Through the pain. 

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It all moved so quickly

Had no time to explain

All the odds were against me

Had no time to retain.

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All of the bombs and the blast and lights and the shots

And the nights that I had to remain...

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On the edge of the blade

That you tossed

And you twirled 

And you caught 

I could never escape all the shame...

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We were stumbling through the steps.

But we were not alone...

That house was our home

I've loved you forever

You know my heart didn't roam...

The clouds never parted but I stayed under your dome

And all of our memories are turned into fluttering poems.

Their solid within me here, carved from bitter and broken black stones. 

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And we were stumbling through the lies.

The ones that we both had.

The ones that I told.

Yeah you weren't in love

But my heart was sold...

And those words were cold.

And those eyes were bold.

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And my heart was hurting itself

Just to beat for you everyday

I had no resistance to you

A weary heart floating astray.

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I wish that I -did that thing...-

I wish that I -didn't do that.-

I wish that I -can't say that shit here...-

I wish I could take it all back.

I wish that we would have waited

I wish that I didn't look back...

I wish that I didn't hate it.

The time that we wasted on trash.

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Another month just rolled past.

I left you in '22'

When I was just 33

And you were just doing you.

I was just bleeding out.

And you were just breathing air.

And you were feeling alone.

And I was just sitting there...

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And we were stumbling through the dark.

But we were together.

Nothing was better.

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But nothing got better. 

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