I remember when you told me that it would be me one day.
Shit...we were much younger then...
And I remember all the nights I prayed
That loving you would go away...
That one day I could wake up and see us as only friends.
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And I remember that time,
That very last time.
You pulled me into your bathroom,
Looked right into my eyes
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Then you kissed me...
Your husband wasn't there
You leaned in like you missed me.
You had my whole world spinnin' round
Like a frisbee...
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Now I see you pregnant with your third.
When the first should have been mine,
Yeah, we both know that was the word...
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It was so close, yet so far.
Elated, you popped a toast...
Then you bought your man a cigar,
Cause you really needed to boast...
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I had forgotten who you were,
Yeah, you treated me like a ghost...
I should have realized he was always
Who you really wanted the most...
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And I...recall how you used to look at me...
The little smiles
Before it all dissolved to apathy.
Before the pillow talk
Before you turned to laugh at me...
Before you found that "better" man
Before the last catastrophe...
Before you took everything
Leaving me
With the last of me...
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I remember me chasing you throughout the years.
The hopes and dreams that I lived with
Would all be drowned in cold tears
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I remember the way your body
Was slotted against my gears...
And the setting, and all the bedding,
It muffled out all the fears...
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And I hated the way it felt
It was rushed and behind his back...
And I know that it all was sudden
I gave you the love he lacked...
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When you said:
"It was too intense"
I see now that it was true...
In your head, while in my bed
I was him
And you were you...