Ye Xi continued, "Moreover, you know that I did have a child back then, a child by a man I've never even met. I am consumed by shame for what happened every moment, and even with that, I could never forgive Song Musen. Song Musen and I have long become people from two different worlds."
"And even if I step back ten thousand steps, if I knew where my child was, do you think Song Musen would accept me, a woman who has had another man's child? As long as that child exists, to him, it would be an indelible shame, something he would feel disgusted by constantly. Isn't this what you would love to see?"
Ye Susu looked at Ye Xi like this.
Ye Xi was absolutely right; as long as Song Musen found out about the existence of that child.
Ye Xi's persistent longing for that child would remove any possibility of reconciliation between her and Song Musen.
Though she, Ye Susu, could no longer have Song Musen, she wouldn't let Ye Xi have that hope either.
