Hey folks, I hope that this finds you well, as always.
I was digging through a couple of my bins the other day and I stumbled across something crazy.
SEVERAL LOST PAGES OF THIS JOURNAL!!!
They must have fallen out somehow lol.
There are about 20 pages in total!
Had they been posted in order, they would have probably landed somewhere between Chapters 55 and 58!
Not so far from where we are now, yet out of place enough to be...well, out of place lol.
I apologize for this inconvenience, yet I am glad for it at the same time as you all will get to experience and explore a corridor that would have been otherwise missed.
I hope that you enjoy the next several chapters regardless of them not being in order lol.
From what I see here, there are three journal entries and a handful of poems and songs.
I'll post them in separate parts so that they can be explained, and then I'll get back on track and back to the normal/numerical order.
Once again, I apologize for the inconvenience!
I will let you all get to it!
Catch you on the flip side!
Enjoy.
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March 26th, 2012.
Journal #XXX.
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Thoughts...
You are softer than you should be.
Those lips land on mine and I lose myself in your eyes.
You must be a figmentation an apparition.
Summoned from my unconscious mind.
XXXXX how I long for you.
How my heart feels the flutter of your wings.
How my soul feels that touch that only you can bring.
My ties to this world are strong.
My God.
My Humanity.
My Heart.
Keep me here.
Here where love is a battlefield
And our hearts are our swords,
Our minds our shields.
Is it truth that with time our hearts may very well cross?
Might my shield bear the mark of your sword and leave me without loss?
Your words echo within my heart.
Softly.
To softly just as your lips...
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-You know...I don't think I recall what this whole thing was about lbvs. But It FEELS like it was some sort of a random spout of poetic inspiration lol.
I dig it lol.
It has a nice flow to it.
Simple and clean.
If you know, you know lol.
Simplicity pleases me, you know?
If you've read any of my poetry from "Shadows before Dawn." you would probably call me a liar lol
But it really does.
This -as all of my poetry- was/is a reflection of something that I was feeling.
Something palpable and potent.
I don't remember what it was about, but it was real nonetheless.
-The name that was omitted is Kasi. I don't typically reveal names like this, but hers is beyond important to me. She is my Spiritual Guide and Guardian.
We all -I believe- have one.
Knowing that fact or their name is a whole different thing and level lol.
Yeah, I'm weird.
But you all have made it this far into my old journals so don't judge me lmao.
Her name is also not Kasi.
And I am sure that -being a Faerie- she probably doesn't identify as either male or female.
Nonetheless, she is a SHE to me, and that name was the name that she gave me, so It is the one I call her by.
Faerie tend to be a bit elusive and strange that way.
But I won't go into detail lol, this isn't a place for that lol.
I will see you all back here soon enough with another Lost page!
Till then, and as always, safe travels folks.
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Redd.