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As they walked back from the crypts, Robb watched his brother with growing concern. The whispers followed them like shadows through the torchlit corridors of White Harbor, and though Jon appeared to ignore them, Robb could see the tension in his jaw, the way his hands would clench and unclench at his sides.
"You haven't told me what really happened," Robb said quietly when they were finally alone in Jon's chambers. "I know you, brother. You're carrying something heavy."
Jon moved to the window, his back to Robb. "Leave it be."
"The servants talk, you know. Those three men were torn apart. Not killed by sword or arrow, but ripped to pieces." Robb stepped closer. "They say it looked like the work of some great beast, yet there were no tracks, no signs of—"
"I said leave it!" Jon's voice cracked like a whip, his shoulders tight with tension. Then, softer, "Please, Robb. Don't ask me questions I can't answer."
Robb studied his brother's reflection in the darkened window. Jon had always been the quieter of the two, more prone to brooding, but this was different. There was something haunted in his eyes now, something that went beyond grief.
"You think I don't notice?" Robb pressed on. "The way you flinch when people wonder how you survived? The way you avoid looking at your own reflection? Something happened out there, Jon. Something you're afraid to speak of."
Jon turned then, and for a moment, Robb thought he saw something flicker in his brother's eyes – something wild and ancient and not entirely human. But it was gone so quickly he might have imagined it.
"What good would talking do?" Jon's voice was hollow. "Will it bring her back? Will it ease Lord Manderly's pain? Will it stop the nightmares?" He laughed bitterly. "Some things are better left in silence, brother."
"Not between us," Robb insisted. "Never between us. We're brothers, Jon. We're—"
"We're what?" Jon cut him off. "What are we, Robb? Because I'm not even sure what I am anymore." His voice dropped to a whisper, so low Robb almost missed it.
Robb watched as Jon seemed to fold in on himself, all the fight draining out of him.
"I hear them, you know," Jon continued quietly. "The whispers. 'How did the bastard survive when the lord's granddaughter died?' 'What really happened in that clearing?' 'Why won't he speak of it?'" He turned back to the window. "Perhaps they're right to wonder. Perhaps they should be afraid."
"Afraid? Of you?" Robb moved to stand beside his brother. "Jon, you're my brother. Nothing will ever change that. Whatever happened out there, whatever you're not telling me – it doesn't matter."
"Doesn't it?" Jon's reflection showed a bitter smile. "What if I told you I'm not the same person who left Winterfell? What if I told you something happened to me, something I don't understand, something that terrifies me?"
Robb placed a hand on Jon's shoulder, feeling him tense at the touch. "Then I'd say you're still my brother, and we'll figure it out together."
For a moment, Jon seemed to lean into the touch, as if desperately wanting to share his burden. But then he straightened, shrugging off Robb's hand.
"No," he said firmly. "This is my burden to bear. My penance for failing her." He turned to face Robb, his eyes hard. "Promise me you'll stop asking, Robb. Promise me you'll let this lie."
Robb wanted to argue, to insist that brothers shouldn't keep secrets, that whatever darkness Jon was carrying didn't have to be faced alone. But he saw something in Jon's expression that made him hesitate – not just grief or guilt, but genuine fear. Fear for Robb, perhaps, rather than of him.
"I promise," Robb said finally, though it pained him. "But remember this – whatever you're not telling me, whatever you think you have to protect me from... I'm here. When you're ready, if you're ever ready, I'm here."
Jon nodded once, then turned back to the window. Robb lingered for a moment longer, watching his brother's silhouette against the night sky, before quietly leaving the room. As he walked away, he couldn't shake the feeling that he'd failed somehow – that by honoring Jon's request for silence, he was leaving his brother to face some unnamed darkness alone.
Three Days Later
Jon's footsteps echoed through the corridors of White Harbor, each step feeling like lead. Robb walked beside him in silence, offering quiet support. The morning light filtered through the high windows, but it brought no warmth to Jon's cold dread.
The guards opened the doors to the main hall, and Jon felt his heart constrict at the sight before him. Lord Manderly sat in his great chair, looking aged beyond his years. Ned Stark sat to his right, his face grave. Ser Wylis and Ser Wendel flanked their father, their usual jovial nature replaced by solemn gravity. Wynafryd sat apart, her tears falling silently, each drop a reminder of what they'd all lost.
Jon walked to the center of the hall, his steps measured, his back straight despite the weight crushing his chest. He stopped and raised his eyes to meet Lord Manderly's, preparing himself for the hatred he expected to see there.
"Jon Snow," Lord Manderly's voice was surprisingly gentle. "How are you feeling, lad?"
The question caught Jon off guard. He'd expected accusations, anger, blame – not this concern for his wellbeing. His throat tightened.
"I am... well enough, my lord," he managed, the lie tasting bitter on his tongue.
Lord Manderly nodded slowly, his eyes never leaving Jon's face. "Tell us what happened that day. Tell us about my granddaughter's last moments."
Jon's hands trembled slightly, and he clasped them behind his back to still them. He could feel his father's steady gaze, Robb's concerned presence, Wynafryd's quiet sobs.
"We went to the great tree," he began, his voice hoarse. "As we had done every day that week. Wylla..." his voice caught on her name. "She was excited. She'd found new markings she wanted to study."
He closed his eyes briefly, seeing it all again. "The wildlings came from nowhere. Thirty of them, with two deserters from the Night's Watch. They'd been watching us, learning our routine."
"Your men fought bravely," he continued, looking at Lord Manderly. "Every one of them died protecting her, as they'd sworn to do." He swallowed hard. "But there were too many."
"And you?" Lord Wylis Manderly spoke for the first time. "How did you survive against such numbers?" Jon could see it in his eyes; after all, his daughter was dead, and the bastard was still alive. Jon knew the man hated him.
Jon's hands clenched behind his back. How could he explain what he himself didn't understand? The healing, the steam, the transformation – it all seemed like a fever dream now.
"I fought," he said simply. "I killed as many as I could. But I was... I was tiring." His voice grew thick with self-loathing. "One of the deserters, he... he got behind Wylla. Had a knife to her throat."
Wynafryd's sob broke through his narrative. Jon forced himself to continue, though each word felt like glass in his throat.
"He told me to drop my sword. I should have been faster, should have found a way..." Jon's voice cracked. "Wylla... she... she fought back. She had her dagger. She struck at him, caught him in the eye."
Lord Manderly made a sound, something between pride and anguish. "That's my girl," he whispered.
"He... he killed her for it," Jon's voice was barely audible. "Out of anger, he... her throat..." He couldn't continue.
The hall was silent save for Wynafryd's quiet weeping. Jon could feel the weight of their stares, their unspoken questions about what happened next.
"After that..." Jon struggled to find the words. "I don't... I don't remember clearly. There was rage, so much rage. Something happened to me. Something I can't explain or understand. When it was over, the remaining three were dead."
"Torn apart," Ser Wylis said quietly. "We found what was left of them."
Jon met his eyes steadily, though shame burned in his chest. "Yes."
"And the footprints?" Ser Wendel asked. "The giant tracks in the snow?"
"I don't know," Jon answered honestly. "I don't remember. Everything after... after she fell... it's all fragments and darkness."
Lord Manderly leaned forward in his chair, his massive frame creaking with the movement. "Look at me, Jon Snow."
Jon forced himself to meet the lord's gaze, expecting to finally see the condemnation he deserved. Instead, he saw something else – grief, yes, but also understanding.
"My granddaughter believed in the old powers," Lord Manderly said slowly. "She believed magic still lived in the North, in the ancient places, in the blood of the First Men. She died seeking understanding of these mysteries."
"My lord, I—" Jon started, but Lord Manderly raised a hand.
"You loved her," the lord stated simply. "Don't deny it. I saw it growing between you two. And she... she loved you too."
The words felt more painful than any swords. He felt tears threatening to fall and blinked them back furiously.
"Whatever happened in that clearing," Lord Manderly continued, "whatever power awoke in you... she would have understood. She would have wanted to understand."
"It doesn't matter," Jon's voice was raw. "It came too late. I failed her. I failed you."
"No," Lord Manderly's voice grew firm. "You fought for her. You avenged her. And something tells me you're carrying a burden." Jon shook his head in denial. Why weren't they screaming at him? Why weren't they angry with him? Why were they not blaming him? He deserved it. He should be blamed. He should be punished.
"Look at me, Jon Snow."
Jon forced himself to meet the lord's gaze. He found something that made his chest tighten – understanding, and a deep, sorrowful gratitude.
"You tried to protect her," Lord Manderly's voice was thick with emotion. "You fought against impossible odds for my daughter. Despite what your name might be, you've proven yourself more of a true knight than any I've ever known."
Jon's hands trembled behind his back, his throat constricting.
"My lord," Jon's voice was barely more than a whisper, rough with unshed tears. "How can you say that? How can you call me a knight when I..." his voice caught, "when I failed to protect the one person who saw past the bastard name? Who saw me for who I was?"
He could feel his father's gaze on him, heavy with concern, could sense Robb's desire to step forward and offer comfort. But Jon stood alone in the center of the hall, as he had always been alone.
"I was too weak," he continued, his voice breaking. "All my training, all my preparation, and in the end, I couldn't..." He stopped, unable to continue.
Lord Manderly opened his mouth to speak again, but Jon couldn't bear to hear more kindness he didn't deserve. He bowed deeply, hiding the tears that threatened to spill.
"By your leave, my lord."
Without waiting for a response, Jon turned and strode from the hall, his back straight despite the weight crushing his chest. He could feel the tears burning behind his eyes but refused to let them fall. He didn't deserve the release of grief, not when Wylla would never laugh again, never dream again, never pursue her passion for the ancient mysteries she loved so much.
The heavy doors closed behind him, and only then did he allow himself to falter, one hand reaching out to steady himself against the cold stone wall. Robb found him there moments later, but Jon shook off his brother's attempted comfort.
One Week Later
The clash of steel against steel echoed through White Harbor's training yard before dawn had even broken. Jon moved like a man possessed, his sword singing through the air as he practiced forms against imaginary opponents. His muscles burned, but he welcomed the pain – it was better than the hollow ache in his chest.
"You're up early again," Ser Rodrik's voice cut through the morning mist. The old master-at-arms had been watching Jon's relentless training with growing concern.
"Can't sleep," Jon replied shortly, not breaking his rhythm.
"You haven't been sleeping for a whole week."
Jon ignored the observation, focusing instead on his footwork. Left, right, pivot, strike. Each movement precise, each strike carrying more force than necessary. The training dummy shuddered under his blows.
"Seven hells, Snow," one of the guards watching called out. "That dummy had a family."
Jon's only response was to strike harder.
---
By midday, Jon had moved to the weight yard. Barrels needed moving, and he volunteered without hesitation. The guards watched in amazement as he lifted a barrel full of weapon parts – a task that usually required two men.
"That's not natural," one guard muttered. "Boy's gotten stronger than an ox."
Robb approached as Jon set down the barrel, sweat soaking through his shirt despite the cold. "You need to rest, brother."
"I'm fine."
"You're not fine. You haven't been fine since—"
"I said I'm fine, Robb." Jon's voice carried an edge that made his brother fall silent.
Across the courtyard, Wynafryd appeared briefly at a window. Jon caught her gaze for a moment before she turned away, her face a mask of barely contained grief. He could almost hear her thoughts: 'It should have been you. Why did my sister die while you lived?'
He grabbed another barrel.
---
The afternoon found him practicing archery until his fingers bled. Draw, aim, release. Again and again, until the targets blurred before his eyes.
"Your form has improved," A soldier remarked.
"Not good enough," Jon muttered, nocking another arrow.
"Jon, you've been at this for hours—"
The arrow split its predecessor at the center of the target.
"Not. Good. Enough."
---
Evening brought sparring matches. Jon faced opponent after opponent, his movements becoming more fluid, more powerful with each passing day. Something had changed in him since that day in the woods. His strikes carried an inhuman strength, his reflexes sharper than ever.
"Again," he demanded after disarming his fourth opponent.
"Snow, we've been at this—"
"Again!"
The guards exchanged worried glances but complied. Jon fought until his arms shook from exhaustion, until he could barely lift his practice sword. Only then did he allow himself to stop, because only then could he hope to sleep without seeing her face.
---
In his chambers, Jon examined his hands. The blisters had healed with that same strange steam, leaving no marks.
A knock at his door interrupted him.
"Enter," he called, quickly pulling on his sleeves.
Lord Eddard Stark stepped into the room, his face grave in the candlelight. Jon straightened immediately, though his tired muscles protested.
"Father."
"Sit, Jon," Ned said softly, closing the door behind him. "We need to talk."
Jon remained standing. "I should prepare for tomorrow's journey—"
"Sit."
Something in his father's tone brooked no argument. Jon sank onto the edge of his bed, his hands clasped tightly in his lap.
"The guards tell me you've been first to the training yard and last to leave, every day for a whole week," Ned began. "They say you're lifting weights that should be impossible, fighting with a strength that seems... unnatural."
Jon's jaw tightened. "I need to get stronger."
"Why?"
"Because I was weak!" The words burst from Jon with unexpected force. "Because I wasn't strong enough when it mattered! Because she—" His voice broke.
Ned moved to sit beside his son. "Jon, what happened wasn't your fault."
"Wasn't it?" Jon's laugh was bitter. "I was supposed to protect her. I promised I would protect her. And now she's dead, and I'm... I'm whatever I am now."
"And what are you?"
Jon fell silent, unable to answer.
"The servants whisper about your growing strength," Ned continued quietly. "About the way your injuries seem to vanish."
Jon's hands clenched into fists. "I don't know what's happening to me," he admitted in a whisper. "But it came too late. If I had been like this before, if I had been stronger—"
"Then perhaps you both would have died," Ned cut in. "Or perhaps nothing would have changed. We cannot know, Jon. We cannot live in the realm of 'what if.'"
"How do I live with it then?" Jon's voice cracked. "How do I live with knowing I failed her? That she died believing in me, trusting me, and I couldn't—" He stopped, fighting back tears.
"By honoring her memory," Ned said softly. "Not by destroying yourself in some misguided attempt at penance."
"I see her face every time I close my eyes," Jon confessed. "I hear her voice. Sometimes... sometimes I think I hear her screaming at me, asking why I lived when she died. Wynafryd looks at me and I know she's thinking the same thing."
"Lady Wynafryd is grieving," Ned said. "As are you. Grief makes us think things, believe things that aren't true."
"But they are true," Jon insisted. "I am a bastard who lived while a noble daughter died. I am a failed protector who gained strength only after it was too late to matter. I am—"
"My son," Ned interrupted firmly. "You are my son, Jon. And you are carrying a burden that would break most men. Whatever is happening to you, whatever you're becoming – you don't have to face it alone."
Jon stood abruptly, pacing to the window. "I do have to face it alone. Because no one else can understand. No one else..." He trailed off, staring into the darkness.
"Can become something inhuman?" Ned finished quietly.
Jon's head snapped around, fear evident in his eyes.
"The footprints in the snow," Ned continued. "The way the wildlings were torn apart. The steam from your wounds. I'm not blind, Jon. Something happened to you out there, something beyond our understanding."
"Are you afraid of me?" Jon's voice was barely audible.
"No," Ned replied without hesitation. "I'm afraid for you. You're pushing yourself to limits that no human should be able to reach, carrying a guilt that no one should have to bear alone."
"I have to get stronger," Jon insisted. "I have to be better. I can't... I can't fail anyone else like I failed her."
Ned stood and approached his son, placing a hand on his shoulder. "You didn't fail her, Jon. You fought for her. You avenged her. And now you're punishing yourself for surviving."
Jon's shoulders began to shake, though no tears fell. "How do I live with it, father? How do I wake up each day knowing she's gone and I'm still here?"
"One day at a time," Ned said softly. "And not alone. Whatever power you've discovered, whatever strength you're developing – use it wisely. Honor her memory not by destroying yourself, but by becoming someone who can protect others."
"I don't know if I can," Jon whispered.
Jon sat back down on his bed, studying his father's face in the candlelight. Ned Stark rarely showed vulnerability, yet something in his expression now seemed distant, lost in memories.
"When I heard about your grandfather and uncle," Ned said suddenly, his voice low and heavy with old pain, "I was in the Vale. Robert was with me. The news came by raven."
Jon's breath caught. His father almost never spoke of Rickard and Brandon Stark's deaths, and never of the moment he learned of them.
"The maester handed me the scroll," Ned continued, his eyes fixed on some point in the distant past. "I remember my hands wouldn't stop shaking as I read it. Brandon... strangled himself trying to save Father. And Father..." He paused, swallowing hard. "Father burned alive in his armor, screaming for his son."
"Father, you don't have to—" Jon started, but Ned raised a hand.
"No, you need to hear this, Jon. Because for months after, I couldn't sleep. Every time I closed my eyes, I imagined their screams. I imagined what I could have done differently if I'd been there. I blamed myself for being safe in the Vale while they died in King's Landing."
Jon's hands clenched in his lap. "How... how did you bear it?"
"At first, I didn't," Ned admitted. "I threw myself into preparation for war. Every waking moment was spent training, planning, pushing myself beyond exhaustion. Sound familiar?"
Jon looked away, unable to meet his father's knowing gaze.
"But one night, Jon Arryn found me in the training yard, much like I've found you tonight. He told me something I've never forgotten. He said, 'The dead don't want our guilt, Ned. They don't want our death. They want us to live.'"
"It's different," Jon whispered. "You weren't there. You couldn't have saved them."
"And you think you could have saved Wylla?" Ned's voice was gentle. "Against thirty wildlings? The fact that you survived at all, that you avenged her, is remarkable."
"But this power..." Jon flexed his hand. "If I'd had it then..."
"We can't live in maybes, son. I spent months wondering what would have happened if I'd been in King's Landing, if I'd had an army, if I'd been stronger or faster or smarter. It nearly destroyed me."
"What changed?"
Ned was quiet for a moment. "I realized that honoring their memory meant living as they would have wanted me to live. Brandon wouldn't have wanted me to destroy myself with guilt. Father wouldn't have wanted me to lose myself in what-ifs."
He looked directly at Jon. "Would Wylla want this? Would she want you spending every waking moment punishing yourself?"
Jon felt tears threatening again. "She..." his voice cracked. "She used to scold me when I was brooding. Said I needed to learn to laugh more."
"Aye," Ned smiled sadly. "She was wise beyond her years, that one. Perhaps you should listen to her now, even in death."
"I don't know how," Jon admitted. "I don't know how to stop feeling this weight."
"You don't stop feeling it," Ned said softly. "You learn to carry it. And you learn to let others help you carry it. I had Robert, and Jon Arryn, and later Catelyn... who do you have, Jon?"
"I..." Jon hesitated. "Robb tries, but..."
"But you push him away. Like you push everyone away." Ned sighed. "That's not strength, son. Sometimes the bravest thing we can do is let others see our pain."
They sat in silence for a moment, the candle flickering between them.
"Does it ever get easier?" Jon finally asked, his voice small.
"Yes and no," Ned answered honestly. "The sharp pain dulls. The guilt becomes less consuming. But you never forget. You just learn to live with the memory, to honor it without letting it destroy you."
Jon nodded slowly, absorbing his father's words. For the first time since that terrible day, he felt something loosen in his chest – not healing, not yet, but perhaps the beginning of understanding.
"Thank you," he whispered. "For telling me about grandfather and uncle Brandon. I know it's not easy to speak of them."
"No," Ned agreed, standing. "But sometimes the hardest stories are the ones we most need to share." He moved to the door, then paused. "Try to rest, Jon. And remember – Wylla saw something in you worth loving. Don't let your grief make you forget that."
As the door closed behind his father, Jon lay back on his bed, his mind full of memories – not of Wylla's death this time, but of her laugh, her passion for ancient mysteries, her gentle scolding when he was always brooding. Perhaps his father was right. Perhaps honoring her meant more than endless training and self-recrimination.
For the first time since her death, Jon allowed himself to remember Wylla as she lived, not as she died. And though the pain was still there, sharp and deep, it felt somehow different – like a wound beginning, ever so slowly, to heal.
Later
The night was cold and clear, stars scattered like diamonds across the northern sky. Jon's footsteps crunched softly in the snow as he made his way to White Harbor's crypts, where the Manderlys buried their dead in the old way despite their devotion to the Seven.
In his hands, he carried winter roses – blue as frost, the same color as the ribbons she used to wear in her hair. He'd found them growing stubbornly through the snow, much like Wylla herself had always been stubborn in her pursuits.
Her grave was simple but beautiful, adorned with shells and sea stones in the Manderly tradition. The sight of her name carved in stone made his chest tighten.
"Hello, Wylla," he said softly, kneeling before the grave. His voice was rough from disuse – he hadn't spoken her name aloud since that day. "I... I brought you flowers."
He placed the winter roses carefully at the base of the stone, their blue petals stark against the white snow.
"I'm leaving tomorrow," he continued, his breath visible in the cold air. "Going back to Winterfell. I should have come here sooner, but I..." he trailed off, gathering his thoughts. "I was afraid. I still am."
The night wind whispered through the godswood, stirring the leaves above.
"Father told me something tonight. About how the dead don't want our guilt. That they want us to live." His voice cracked slightly. "Is that true, Wylla? Would you want me to live? Because I've been trying so hard to become stronger, to never fail anyone again, but I haven't really been living, have I?"
He reached out, his fingers tracing the letters of her name on the stone.
"I remember how you used to laugh at me when I was too serious. How you'd drag me to the Wine Cellar. You were so alive, so full of passion for everything you loved." A tear rolled down his cheek, freezing before it hit the snow. "I've been dishonoring that, haven't I? By turning into this... this hollow thing that only knows how to fight and train."
Jon sat back on his heels, looking up at the stars.
"Something's happening to me, Wylla. I'm changing. Becoming stronger, faster... different. And I've been using it to punish myself, but maybe..." he paused, considering. "Maybe I should use it the way you would have wanted. To protect others, yes, but also to live. To learn. To care."
He pulled something from his pocket – a small piece of parchment, covered in her handwriting. Notes about the Long Night that she'd given him to read, that he'd kept but never looked at after her death.
"I'm going to read your research," he promised. "All of it. And I'll keep training, but not to destroy myself. I'll train to protect others, to be the kind of man you saw in me." His voice softened. "The kind of man you believed I could be."
The wind picked up, making the winter roses dance slightly against the stone. For a moment, Jon could almost imagine it was her teasing laugh carried on the breeze.
"I don't know if I'll ever forgive myself completely," he admitted. "But I'm going to try to live in a way that would make you proud. To be strong without losing myself. To care without fear. To remember you not just in grief, but in joy."
He stood slowly, his red eyes gleaming in the starlight.
"Goodbye, Wylla Manderly," he whispered. "Thank you for seeing me. For believing in me. For..." his voice caught, but he forced himself to continue, "for loving me, bastard name and all. I'll carry that with me, always."
As he turned to leave, the moon broke through the clouds, casting a silver light. The winter roses seemed to glow blue against the snow, beautiful and defiant in the cold – just like she had been.
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