The meeting dragged on, a tedious exchange of information and veiled threats. I felt like Nagant had a plan with Hawks and I couldn't wait to see. After it finally ended, I walked home with Shigaraki, Shinsou, and Kilt, the silence broken only by the occasional murmur of conversation. Kilt and Shigaraki hung back, their voices a low drone behind us, while Shinsou and I walked side-by-side, sharing smiles and whispered words.
When we arrived at the house, Shinsou pulled me into the bathroom and told me to shower. I raised a brow, questioning the sudden demand, but didn't argue. I just did it. The hot water cascaded over my skin, slowly easing the tension. After showering and drying off, I walked out of the bathroom. Shinsou was gone.
He came back in and laid on the bed with me. The lights were off and the moon shined down on us. "Is this ok" he asked while holding me.
"Yea its fine" I replied. I put my head on his chest. I normally wasn't vulunerable but with Shinso it was different he was different....and everything I wanted but I cant go further.....I cant...no this..its to good..to be true..
The weight of my past pressed down on me, a suffocating burden I couldn't escape. The blood on my hands, the sacrifices I'd made, the darkness that clung to my soul—it all made me unworthy. Unworthy of his touch, his affection, his unwavering belief in me. I was stained, tainted, and he was too pure, too good for someone like me.
What would he think if he knew the full extent of my activities, the things I had done to protect the weak. I guess only time will tell if he will understand. A tear ran down my face and I held it in and tried to sleep.
He then kissed my forehead. "Tell me when your ready okay? I may not understand why but I respect your reasons" he mumbled. I hugged him tighter.
I closed my eyes and let the exhaustion wash over me. But even in sleep, I couldn't find peace. Nightmares plagued me, vivid and terrifying replays of past battles and betrayals. I tossed and turned, my body tense and restless, but Shinsou would always hold me tightly.