Returning to the tent to rest, Idan lay down, but could not immediately fall asleep.
His mind was preoccupied with finding a solution to the problem.: how to fully control his bloodline so that it wouldn't affect his emotions and pose a hidden threat that could explode at any moment.
He realized that the root of the problem lay in himself, not in others. He should have changed his views, accepted himself for who he is, and sought to become the best version of himself. It was important to stop looking for excuses and not shift responsibility onto others.
He began to recall the most important moments of his life, starting with those that were most vividly etched in his memory.
He thought of his dead father. Idan loved him the way he was. Unlike many other people, his father was an ordinary man who genuinely loved his wife and children.
He never raised a hand against Idan and his older sister. Idan clearly remembered how his older sister adored her father, and how he spoiled her.
