September 30th
Tonight was a little awkward. Jack and I were cuddled up on the couch, watching a movie, when he started getting a little too close. He was kissing my neck and holding me tight, and I could tell he was getting turned on.
Then, he whispered in my ear, "Emma, I want to take our relationship to the next level. I want to make love to you."
I felt a surge of emotions - excitement, nervousness, and a little bit of fear. I've never had sex before, and I wasn't sure if I was ready.
I told Jack that I needed some time to think about it, and he seemed understanding. But I could tell he was a little disappointed.
Now I'm lying in bed, thinking about what he asked. Part of me wants to say yes, but another part of me is scared. What if it hurts? What if I'm not good at it?
I don't know what to do. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what tomorrow brings.