*The story will continue from Shivansh's perspective. *
Both Shivansh and Shiva started studying after eating breakfast and a hour of joking with each other and watching insta. They studied for the whole day. Taking 1 hour breaks after every 2 hours of study. For normal people studying this much is impossible but both of them aren't normal. Shivansh who is naturally gifted with a good memory and Shiva who depends on his hard work had improved his memory through sheer hard work and will power. After hours of studying they finally took a break when the eldest student of the pg arrived. His name is Aryan. Aryan was a dropper student and had graduated from school a year ago. And all three of them were good friends.
Shivansh: * Finally after hours of studying I can get some rest. But man I didn't expect Shiva to be able to keep up. He says he isn't talented but you would never know if you looked at him. Now that we are all just talking about bullshit I can easily use a game of truth and dare as excuse to get his trauma. Cuz no way am u gonna expect that this guy is more mature then me*
Aryan: Do you guys enjoy at all? Like both of you are only in 11th class. You both have a lot of time. Enjoy a little.
Shivansh: *Not everyone is like you. Some of us are actually serious. Some of us don't use suicide as a way to manipulate our parents so that they won't get mad at us* We just enjoy studying Aryan.
Shiva: * of course you say that. Not like I didn't expect that* I just enjoy solving tough questions.
Aryan: Ok how about we play a game?
Shivansh: * Oh this is a good opportunity* How about we play truth or dare?
Both Aryan and Shiva: Sure
Shivansh brings out a plastic bottle and spins it around. The bottle spins to land on Aryan first.
Shivansh: Truth or dare?
Aryan: hmmm.... Truth
Shiva: * This is a good chance* Why do you only date online and totally avoid girls in the real world.
Shivansh: Oh that's a good question. Why do you avoid girls in real life?
Aryan: I am just scared of them. * shit shit shit shit shit*
Shiva: Ohhhh, don't act like that. We all know there's more to it. I would bet that it's either due to bullying or rejection.
Aryan:.... * shut shut shut shit shit shit*
Shivansh: Ohhhh, did Shiva hit a mark?
Aryan: ....* should I tell them or not? I don't know. I never told anyone. Should I.....tell them?....they are my friends...i can tell them. Right?...fuck it. Let's do this. They are my friends the least I can do is trust the. * Yes he did. I wasn't this tall originally. Nor was I this bold or skilled in conversations. But I once proposed to a girl and was rejected. But then the class bullied me cuz of that.
Shiva: Oh that must feel so bad. * So in the end you use this bullying as a excuse to become a attention seeking playboy. I don't like to say it but you have already crossed the line that I hate. I will play around with you as much as I want. I will make you regret it*
Shivansh: So that's why you avoid girls. They bullied and insulted you.... Now you make them regret making that choice. Don't you? With the way you talk to girls online. It's their fault for all this. * He is so strong and tall and yet he let himself be bullied. If I was in his place I would beat them. Not a lot but I would at least make them regred their choice. Or else what's the point of having all this money and power*
They once again roll the bottle. But this time it lands on Shivansh. He doesn't show it but he is a bit anxious.
Aryan: Truth or dare, Shivansh? [ He says with a playful grin]
Shivansh:* It's not like I have much to hide. They basically know all the things about me* hmmm.... Truth?
Shiva: What do you think about yourself?
Shivansh: * Seriously? This is a game not a therapy* Well I rather like myself for how I am it I could be a lot better. Is that enough? You never asked for a detailed answer after all.
Shiva: Fine. I am gonna spin the bottle.
This type Shiva spins the bottle and it lands on Aryan.
Shivansh: Truth or dare?
Aryan: I am gonna take the chances and go with truth.
Shivansh: How many gfs do you have online?
Shiva: * This guy just had to ask a question before me. Sigh.... Fine I will let this slide.
Aryan: I have had a total of 12 gfs till now.
Shivansh and Shiva: * We kinda expected that already. *
Shiva: Ok I am gonna roll it again.
Once again Shiva rolls the bottle but this time the bottle stops while pointing towards Shiva himself.
Shiva: Before any of you ask I will say it myself. I choose truth I don't want to do some random bullshit you guys tell me. Cuz you guys wouldn't even hesitate to fuck a guy.
Aryan: Ok ok we get it. Let us think.
Shivansh: *perfect this is my chance* Tell us about all your trauma.
Aryan:.....
Shiva:.... Fine.
Shivansh: Huh? That was easier then I expected.
Shiva: Of course cuz I don't really care. [ Shiva says this in his same as always perfect smile]
Aryan and Shivansh: Ok tell us.
Shiva: Well let's see. I am gonna tell you my whole story in the kost direct way so you guys better me ready for it. Hmmm..... Father wasn't there for 9-10 years. My mom abused me physically and grandpa was always screaming at me. I was bullied and beat up as well. But after two years of bully I fucked up the bullies leader real hard. He was hospitalized for a hear. [ Shiva say's while laughing, but he was the only one laughing in the room] Fine I will continue. I was also almost raped as a kid. Mom and dad tried to kill each other in a small dispute a 3 or so years after he came back. They fought for two months and still didn't patch up like the adults they should be. So I took it upon myself to fix everything and used myself to make me the main target of their hatred and my little brother who was 3 years old at the time as the hero in the story. I distracted their anger from each other towards me and fixed the dispute completely in a month. Oh and while this was all going on my crush of four years rejected me. After that I barely passed 10tg with decent marks and was blamed for not getting better marks. I abused pain killers after I shifted to this pg and also caffeine abuse. Oh and I also did drugs for a while. I quit after a month. And the withdrawal symptoms ended in a year or so. And here I am. Oh and I also forgot to say that my grandma died in a crash in front of me. That's all. [ He still had a perfect smile but after he told his story that smile of his seemed a but more forced]
Shivansh and Aryan: ... [ Both of them remain silent for a few seconds but there wasn't complete silence in the room. The sound of them violently and anxiously shaking there legs is audible throughout the room. There eyes can't meet Shiva. Both of them are avoiding eye contact with him. They are unable to meet his eyes. They feel ashamed. It's clearly visible that they are thinking very deeply. ]
Shivansh: * What the fuck? He seemed so innocent and idiotc. How is he still alive? Are the suicidal jokes me made for fun not a joke? This just raises so many questions. And how does he smile like that after all that? I just noticed but his smile? It's shaking? No it's more similar to trembling. Is talking about all this that hard for him.* ... Come on we get. Stop joking already. If all this was true the there's a good chance you would be suicidal and there would also be a possibility of you being dead.
Shiva: Well the only reason I didn't kill myself is my family. And you already know that I was suicidal. * This is so fun. Let's see how they will calm down and lighten my the mood. If they can't do it then just for the sake of fun I will. Oh fuck not this problem.i can't let the trembling happen now. Take a good breathe and calm down Shiva. Ok better now. No more shaking*
Shivansh:* Oh why did his smile suddenly stop trembling? Is he holding himself back from breaking down? For us? Does he trust us so much that he revealed everything even though it hurts him so much? He trusts us so much? Shiva I promise you whenever you need me I will always help you. *
Aryan: * Wtf! Wtf! Wtf! How am I supposed to believe that this is the same junior who plays around with me on a daily basis. This is just..... So... New... To me.... How am I supposed to react? How am I supposed to comfort a person who smiled the whole timing while telling a story like this. * Damn.....that's rough....But hey, at least you're still alive. So anyway could you help me with a girl. She is kinda a traumatized so it's pretty hard to understand and gain her trust..... Would you? Please?
Shiva: Of course I will help you. You are my senior after all. And no need to be worried about me. There's still some stuff in the side I didn't tell and I am completely fine[ He says this with a smile but in his mind something completely different is going on] * Oh look at their reaction. So priceless. I couldn't have asked for anything better. I couldn't have asked for better friends,so caring. It was a good idea to not try to hide all this. Saying this all in the most direct and honest way the best. Being so direct gave me a better idea of how much I can trust them. *
Shiva: If you are both wondering why I told you everything without any hesitation. Then the answer is very simple. You guys aren't the first people to know about this. I have told two of my old best friends about this. And I trust you both and I want to trust you both even more then O already do. We are the best trio. So it's alright to honest, right? Cuz I prefer the harsh truth over lies. * let's change my expression a bit to show sadness. I get that I was never able to process emotions but I should have enough practice at this point to execute it flawlessly. Right? Come on trust yourself. *
Shiva's face now appears to have slight hind of sadness. He is smiling but it is now easy to tell that his smile is forced. His eyes now appear to be visibly sad. Even though he is smiling. Both of them notice this.
Shivansh: Don't worry Shiva. We are your friends. I am honestly cluesless how to comfort but I am always gonna be there for you. Isn't that right Aryan?
Aryan: ... Uhhh. Ye-... Yes. Ahhh. Forget it... [Takes a deep breath] Trust us Shiva.... We will always be there for you.
Shiva is now visibly smiling. It's seems like he is happy now. But the question is why is he happy? What sort of happiness is this? Is he happy that he can trust them? Or is there some other reason behind his smile?