Chapter 5
He knew very well that I loved Nathaniel Bassey's songs. I have never felt so alive, my feets tapped the lush grass, I felt beetles or insects spring up in indignation, probably because they were happy I was praising their creator. I held Thane's hands, it was big and coarse, a feeling that I was familiar with, the same hands that caressed my palms and arms after morning prayers. Thane gave me a knowing look. I had told him that I loved holding his hands, it reminded me of this particular verse. It was in the book of Isaiah 41: 13…for the lord my God will hold my right hand and he will say to you, do not fear, he will help you.
I smiled as I closed my eyes and meditated these words, I massage my husbands palm with my thumb, rubbing his coarse skin back and forth, like I was trying to read a Braille.
" let us go sit down to eat, are you not tired of standing"
"I love being close to you like this, if I sit on that dinner table we are going to be far apart, let me enjoy this moment" I said, I knew him hearing such words would stir up something in him, I could see his wonderful teeth appear between his lips, like was advertising for some toothpaste company, I knew it would do something to his 'marital morale', it is a term in marriage, for those who are yet to be married.
" True, nice observation, even I, do not want such distance, but let's go, I have a plan" he dragged me willfully, like he had just found the 'X' mark on his treasure hunt. He took me down to the small cottage, it had a small veranda which were decorated in jasmine flowers, primroses and moonflowers. Each flower branches entangled with one another till they formed a big heart. The glass ware on the table reflected the candescence of the dark purple LED's.
I became feckless, I wondered when he had planned all of this, his hands still on my wrist, he sat down and dragged me down gently to sit on his laps.
" Does the distance still disturb you?" he opened a food cloche that seemed to have been housing the food from insects and from the cold currents of the forest trees
" No it doesn't , I let us eat" I signaled with my eyes. The pasta that had been waiting for us for ages.
" The food would get cold, I am sure you don't want to eat cold food, you told me how you always vomited in mid school anytime you tried eating food that was not heated " I picked up a fork and I destroyed the buildings of pasta strands with a huge meat ball, bolder shaped, I imagined the spaghetti begging for help. Thane wasn't even looking at the dinning table, his gaze was fixed on me.
"I know that with you around, you can always heat things up"he held my shoulders and he placed his hands on my laps, then he caressed me softly.
Apparently, my satin flare gown didn't want to respect itself and do it's job, when I had sat on Thane's laps did not want to respect itself and remain below my knee.\
When he placed his hands on my legs, I really knew where we were heading too, I was enjoying it all but I was so hungry. All I wanted right now was to eat.
" I know that you know tomorrow's is our anniversary, I set up all this to remind you how much I love you. I did not forget, this was the place where I had proposed to you, back then. I was so scared back then, I did not know wether you would have had agreed or not. I am grateful to God for giving me a wife like you, even the scriptures says that he findeth a wife, findeth a good thing. I findeth peace. Peace, ever since you entered into my life, I became more confident, my secret place with God became stronger, I could love people more genuinely because you taught me how too, sometimes I realize that when it came to the bride price I paid your parents, I remember that I am still indebted to them. Before I allowed all my decisions to be ruled by logic but now, now I met you, you introduced me to fellowship. I started living by the spirit. I know that I am still growing, I stand, fall, stand but I don't know how the fuc-'' I stared into his eyes disapprovingly, he knew that even though we were married, I do not respond to certain kinds of languages.
"I am sorry, what I am trying to say is that, I will ask you to marry me a thousand times ,so at this same spot, let us renew our vows" he held my hands and squeezed them gently, then he removed the ring from my finger where it was worn, and he removed his. My face was already brimming hot, I could not believe that I would be re living this moment with him, I stared into his eyes and I kissed him on the cheek. His beards gave me a tickle on a normal day, I would have teased him about this but he seemed so serious. I wanted to stay there on his face, I removed my hands from his grip and then I wrapped my arms around his neck.
" Peace, will you marry me again?" I knoded as slowly as I could, I held my face down. I didn't want to start crying, he called out my name so gently and bit my ear.
He took my right hand. I felt him trying to figure out which was my ring finger: I separated from his body and I stretched out my hands so he could band me once again. He put a new diamond ring on my finger and then kissed my hands.