Seriously Venice. Are you fucking kidding me V? Don't you listen? Do I have to use methods that will push me to the wall. The dress you wore made you so beautiful. I love the way it hugged your body, trying to draw in your stalker I assume, well he has noticed and appreciates it deeply. I didn't need much to know what you and your friends were saying. Felicity knew me, she knew that I was good. I was the perfect role model. I was attractive in an insanely sexual way, and you knew it too. Listen to Felicity I'm good for you. You need me to treat you right.
"Excuse me can I have beer?" A blonde from the crown said at the counter. I smiled and went on to serve her. She was staring and she was calling me with how she was looking at me. Had the situation been twisted around and I was an actual bar tender, I would be under her dress right now, unfortunately she wasn't the woman I was craving, I was yearning for.
Had the group disbanded? I looked around I couldn't see you. I couldn't see Jace either. I excuse myself for a break to have the other worker fill in and I went to the hallway. If rage was a person we'd be in a tango right now, because why did Jace have his hands on you? He isn't good for you! Must I make you understand?
He's lips on your neck like that? On your pulse feeling its rhythm on his own lips. His hands roaming all over your body like that, your mind I'm sure was screaming for you to stop, but you let out a moan? You're moaning for him? Venice, Fuck! If you started stripping I swear I was going to lose it, but I wasn't going to lose it. You were going to lose it.
My hands started trembling and I felt like my arm wanted to come off. My hand found the door handle to the next room I was in and gripped it hard. My mouth felt dry, and I wanted to scream. You know how to make me sick Vence, sick to my stomach entirely. My ICD was getting worse. My fingers were digging my shirt so deep they were getting to my skin. I can't be in pain Venice you too, I know you were going to feel the same pain I did as well.
Was that Jace calling your name? Good girl, see? I'm completely considerate. I am just showing you your options. I'm here. I'm here and Jace will leave you and will hurt you. I can't see you hurt.
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13 YEARS AGO: Q
"Q!...Q!" I wanted to find Daniella, where the hell did she go I needed her. THe road seemed endless and then the forest didn't seem to end completely. Where was she? Why doesn't she listen! why doesn't anyone listen to me? I hate you! I hate you all!
My family we fed you, we gave you everything you needed and yet you run? You run to where? You have nobody! Nobody wants you, nobody wants a broken soul. No one wants a burden on their shoulders. The forest floor was parted and the tree roots didn't infest the ground as much as I thought it would.
And Danielle I swear if I found you I was not going to let you go. I....love you. You can't do this to me! I love you, I want you to be happy!