During my childhood I was introduced to anime by my oldest sister so I really have her to take because without I don't think I would have survived the coming years.
it's really funny to think about it how I saw a cartoon speaking in a different language and thought my sister went crazy and how when she eventually calmed me down and told me about it
and really after watching a couple episode I was hooked.
I couldn't get enough of it I had to have more to the point that watched it more than my sister and became more passionate about then her. it was like I found my own "release ".
I would watch more and more diving further down the hole head first, to the point where the character becomes my friends to replace the ones I didn't have in my life and to top it off they wouldn't leave me.
But back to my mother's mistake, the drugs that was introduced to her made her a little deaf to things that should have been obvious to any observer.
When the guy got high he became increasingly violent and the look in his eye would grow more pronounced.
During when he was still trying to get in my mother pants he had bought 2 dogs well puppies really for us to play with.
But when he finally got what he wanted from mother mother and the puppies grew older when he got high he would beat the ever living shit out of those puppies to the point that they developed an extreme fear just being around him.
His excuse at the time was that he was training the dogs to be more vicious and better guard dogs....
but the way he "trained" him and the look on his face as he did so make it clear to me the that was nowhere near the case.
when she mother checked out, he checked in
the started the beatings on the dogs first and goy them in line, than he moved to my mother.
still remember the first time I saw him threw her to the ground while she was high out her mind and him mad over something or another and taking it out on her by punch her over
and over
and me and my sister us too young to be see as any significant threat to a drugged out 35 y/0 290 Ib man would just be knocked to the side as he continues to rain punches on my mother
the amount off time my mother was sent to the hospital was insane.
To her and her state at the time she was getting high for free(music to her financially stressed self) and didn't want to let it go so she put up with the domestic abuse but didn't see what he did to us her kids.
It went than from him beating the dogs and my mother to finally him beating us.
not like with a belt when we was bad but him really beating the shit out of us, me more so than my sister because at the time he still had his eyes on them and I was just the boy while he also look at me like my sisters there was also the look he gave me that sent chilled by my spine.
the same look he give the dogs when he "trained" them or the new look he get when he was beating my mother.
It got to the point where we would wear long sleeves to cover bruises and wounds and extra layers for more padding to areas that hurt most but still had to use in school life.
Then the dog attacks began.
when he had "trained" the dog sufficiently he started testing there new "guarding" abilities on on and again me the worst.
To put in perspective we raised those dogs from puppies to full grown dogs and when we first got them there breed didn't matter to us we was happy yo have puppies to play with but when the attacks started their breed started to shine.
They because extremely vicious to use the ones who fed them the dude was to busy or high to care about them. in fact he didn't care about them at all.
Only times he did was when he was high and wanted to beat on something. we who took care of them because he beat them so hard the could move right or eat by themselves.
But becase of their fear if him they forgot all love we showed them only listening to his commands to attack us.
he was smart about a little bit at first doing the attack when my mother went to work and threatening us if we tell he's only going to beat our mother in front of us and then sic the dogs on us again.
This went on for around a few more months before he got my older sister.
she had some kind of expense that my mother didn't have enough to handle and he heard that conversation between mother and daughter, and when she left for work he told all the rest of us to go outside while he talk to my sister.
At the time I didn't know what is plan was but when we came back inside my sister eyes where wet but she somehow had more money than I ever seen her have before and it was than that I knew it could have only come frome him and he did something to my sister but she wouldn't tell us what.
But then again looking back he used the same trick on all of us and isolated my family from loved ones and was violent and possessive towards each and everyone one of us but to different degrees.
The next to go was my younger sister. she hadn't seen our father in months because of the dude and she could no longer get what she usually got from our father, so when she saw her older sister with all that money even though she didn't say how she got it my younger sister still put 2 and 2 together and wanted money to and when she asked for some when our mother was gone he told all of us to leave the house again and when we came back the same thing awaited us.
My sister red eye sad expression on her face but a large amount of money in her pocket.
Then last to go out of my sisters was the youngest and to touch my youngest sister who at the time was...reallllyyyyy young showed the depraved mind he had.
All of us was young but her more so the all of us. and I am ashamed to say that while it took longer he eventually got me to.
I had to endure more beatings and more dog attacks while once the guy got to my sister they abuse and attacks against them became non-existant in my I eyes i know now that it didn't stop just changed form he became more brutal towards me and the look in his eyes as he did so almost took on a fanatical and possessive look.
At the age of 12 almost 13(4 months to disaster) he made his move towards me and at the time I didn't understand what exactly he was doing with my sister I only knew that what ever it was you can get money from him and maybe the beating and attacks would stop.....They didn't only grew more twisted and cruel, because to him the girls he can only do certain things to
But for what he wanted to do to me he seen it as I'm a guy and can handle more abuse and that my mother would turn a blind eye in the name of disciplining me and give me a father figure to look up to.
If only she woke up even then things could have turn out differently