[This story contain child abuse, and violence. And might be traumatizing for some people]
17 year's ago... On mother's day.
"I will give my mama a bunch of flowers!"
"Me too! But I also wanted to give her a cookie"
"Just give her a huge hug! She will be so happy!"
Those words were all over the kindergarten. Yes, there is a day where we show our gratefulness to our own mother. Of course, I was excited too.
"Hyun, why I never saw your mother?," My one and only friend asked.
I didn't remember his name because we called each other's a special nickname.
"She's busy...but I'm sure she just can't have the right time!" I replied while kicking the sand on a park.
"I hope what you say is true, because every mother loves they're kid!" He said while standing in front of me.
"I will returned home now, I hope I can finally talked to her!," I quickly replied with joy.
"Come on man! You can do it!." He jumped with joy.
I quickly run towards my home, the warmest place I ever lived. Not knowing that one day, this day will always be remembered by me for the rest of my life.
...
I entered my house, looking for my mother. And then I knew where my mother's always been, I have a great idea about it.
I entered her room, it's really neat. She's good at everything!
"Mom?...are you there? I got something to say to you"
I looked every corner and stopped my tiny feet, my gaze is focused on a bright jewelry. It's so beautiful that I couldn't take my eyes off of it, I picked it up to look closer.
"What are you doing?"
It shocked me and accidentally dropped a jewelry worth millions Won.
"Mom! I-im sorry! I didn't mean to destroyed it-"
Before I could even finished my words, my mom choked me with her both hands for a really long time. And then she threw me out of the room really hard, I couldn't speak or screaming for help because she choked me really hard.
"You ungrateful brat...why you always ruined everything? I even regretted to gave birth to you!" Her facial expressions is so awful that I started to cry in silent.
"If you think sorry can fix everything then show me!"
She grabbed my collar, and slapped me multiple times. I can't do anything but to accept her slap.
"Hahaha...f*CK, You didn't even changed huh?..."
she grabbed my hair and throw me into my room, and then locked me in.
"Mom?...please...I won't do it again! Ever! Please...let me out of here!"
I keep begging for hours and I didn't even know how long I've been there.
The only thing I do was scratching the door, hoping a miracle to happen. But, I know it's not real.
Then when I loose my hope, I saw a book. I was curious, so I came closer and grabbed the book. It's a bedtime story, but it's really an interesting book.
So I read the book for a quite a long time, and then my father barged in to my room and looked at me with horrific face.
Then he left me again, and I hear mom and dad fighting. They scream as if they didn't have any time left, then I could hear something break a few times.
Then suddenly...I hear a gunshots.
I quickly came to the source of the sounds and I was shocked by what I saw.
My dad was already on the floor, and my mom was bleeding on the edge of the room.
Blood splatter everywhere, just like a paint. I want to move, but I couldn't move my legs and just crying in silent. Standing alone.
...
After those bad memories flashed through my mind, I get snapped from it. This girl remind me of my horrible memories, just who is this girl?
I lost in my thoughts again.
Why do I live in this world? I just want to live like other people, but it's never been going well. I just hope I could run from everything, even if it's mean killing people.
I have to do something about this, it's neither my pride as a human or my egoism to win over this.
...
It's her fault, if only she didn't fight with dad. He might be live normally!...
...
But, why I can't remember what happened that time?...
I... don't remember? Any of my childhood?....