Trust. Something you can't break and be built back.
And that's how I was deceived by my one and only family. Tried to escape from the men they sold me to and went to my boyfriend, only to be betrayed as he called off on me too.
A scam they scalded in my heart. I had no idea where they were taking me, but I entrusted my destiny as God's plan. If he too plays my destiny, then I've nowhere to go, but choose death before any misfortune they have planned with me.
Two days ago..
I was just an ordinary girl, living in Itaewon, helping out an elderly couple in their beer shop as part time whilst I was a business major student in a prestigious university. Even though I had 5 siblings including me, luckily I gained a scholarship that allowed me to study with a bondless contract. I only had to manage my greds without failing any.
After my usual class, I went back home, cooked food for everyone before rushed back to work. My mother is bedridden, while my father was an alcoholic. He won't go to work, which is why you were working. Your elder brother was in a gang, after he dropped off school midway. The rest were all kids, and you managed to send them to school.
As usual you were working that Saturday, and you had been feeling dizzy all day. Your period delayed by 2 weeks already.
"God, let it be anything but this" You were in a relationship for 3 years and your boyfriend was working too. Jeongin was 5 years older than you, but he was a very matured guy. Like any girls wants their boyfriend to be, he was sweet, responsible, and well-mannered. At times, he paid your house bills. Though both of you were busy, he still found time for you, and you did had some intimacy.
But right now, you doubt you were pregnant. It was possible since you didn't use protection.
Worry flashed over your eyes. Pregnancy didn't scare you, indeed you always wished to be a mother. But at the current stage of your life, you can't have a baby. You already had a sick mother and 3 siblings that needs to be fed. Having a child of your own that might be neglected sounds riskier.
You quickly excuse yourself from work, and went to a pharmacy straight away.
"One pregnancy test kit please"
The shopkeeper displayed few, "Which brand do you prefer?"
As much you did have doubts with yourself, but it was best you buy the best one to confirm it.
"Give me the most accurate one please" You exchanged some cash for it before rushing off. The feeling of your doubt turning to be true taunted you.
At a nearby public restroom, you entered into a clean one, and took out the kit, and as per instructions, followed the procedure.
Tapping your feet nervously, you waited.
You cleaned yourself in the meanwhile, and after few minutes you checked it.
Seeing the positive results, your legs gave up on you. Motherhood excited you. But it also reminded you the harsh reality you would face. But Jeongin would be a responsible father. He loved kids as much you did, so you were relieved.