Mica's POV
*Continuation of Flashback...*
We've been together for over a month. I'm so happy. I used to just look at her but now she's hugging me and holding my hand.
"Baby... Eat now. Don't look at me." She ordered me and brought the food closer.
I knew she didn't like being watched. I couldn't help it. She was so good to look at.
"You probably want to try it, right?" She teased me.
I shook my head and immediately took my food. The truth is, I want to but it's still embarrassing.
"Baby... What's that, you'll be busy? The Math contest is coming soon, there's still intrams."
Yes, by the way. I'm the one they're competing with in Math. Section A is taking care of the intrams.
"Yes.. I might not be able to feed you anymore."
"That's okay... I just don't want you to lose time with me." He replied and smiled at me.
That smile! That's the reason why I couldn't sleep the first day I talked to him.
After eating, I quickly went back to our room. No one knew that I was going to the Section E building. Calix wanted to keep everything a secret from us for now.
"Where did you have lunch?" Mykel greeted me.
"Just there..." I whispered my answer.
I knew he was following me. I'd caught him a few times but he was able to hide immediately when I wanted to confront him. I still had to go everywhere just to distract him. I was about to enter the room but I saw Ella walking towards me. Her face was very serious. As if she was about to rush into trouble.
"Ell----"
"When?!" Her voice was a bit louder so she immediately looked at us.
"H-ha? W-which one?"
"Calix's." She whispered to me firmly, trying to catch the scene. I bit my lower lip hard. She didn't know yet. She'd be angry at me.
"W-because..."
"Because what?! Mica! You told me you just wanted to meet him. That's all, but what is this?!" She said with a hint of anger.
I can't blame her. We talked about not having a relationship with him but I didn't keep it. Sorry Ella... I really love Calix.
"When did you two start dating?" She whispered to me.
"It's been over a month." I replied.
"And you didn't even tell me?! You really kept it a secret?!" I couldn't answer. I just gave a curt nod.
"You didn't suspect anything then?" Ella added, confusing my mind.
What did she mean?
"Your relationship is a secret because..." She took a deep breath.
"...he has a girlfriend who is a freshman."
Girlfriend?! But that's me and I'm not a freshman. Something tugged at my heart. Please don't!
"Ask Calix if you want. He can deny it but what I'm saying is true."
She left after saying that. It was as if something in me was hurt. I hope Ella is wrong. I hope what she said isn't true. I trust Ella and Calix. They're both important to me. I don't want it to come to this point. This is probably also the reason why Calix doesn't want me to tell Ella.
Home...
Like before, I'm just waiting here at the gate. Even though it's dark, I'm still waiting. I really need to talk to Calix. It's not that I don't believe in Ella or don't trust her. We just need to talk about this.
"Mica..." Calix called me.
I knew it was her. Even though I didn't look, I knew.
"Why aren't you going home? Didn't I tell you that when it gets dark, you'll be there first? Why are you still here?" He asked me.
I forced a smile. "I just wanted to talk to you."
He held my hand and encouraged me to walk. "I wish you'd just text me."
"I want to do it in person."
His grip on my hand tightened. Suddenly, I felt nervous.
"Is this about Ella?" he asked.
I just looked at him as if waiting for him to say something.
"He caught us earlier. I talked to him and I told him the truth.
That's all he got angry about." He explained.
That's why Ella rushed to me earlier.
"Ella said something else." I said hesitantly.
"Hm?"
"S-she said, you have a freshman girlfriend."
Calix looked away and took a deep breath. "That's not true.
I just thought that a lot of people always approach me with girls."
I was relieved by what he said. The weight in my chest went away. I knew that wasn't true. He chose me.
"S-sorry..."
"What for?" he asked.
"Because it seems like it comes out that I don't trust you."
He stopped walking and faced me. He held my other hand.
"That's normal for people like us. As long as you trust him completely, we won't break." He said and kissed my forehead.
I smiled at him. I like it when he makes me feel like we can't break.
"Let's eat..." He said, pointing to a food court in the night market.
I smiled. We've become friends eating there whenever we go together. Our Math Contest has started. I've been busy so I haven't been seeing Calix much. But I always miss him. text and call.
Just the other day, he doesn't answer. I can't see him at our meeting place either. I don't want to go to the very
Sectoon E because Keifer is angry with me. Ella and I still don't talk. I was inside the cubicle in the CR when I heard some girls talking.
"OhMyGee... He is a really good kisser. I almost got carried away somewhere." One girl said.
"Girl! The guy has a girlfriend, stop him." The other replied.
"Girlfriend?! He doesn't have one. It'll just be, and it's me."
Why did my heart beat faster? That feeling that you know what they're talking about.
"It's rumored that Calix goes home with a girl."
"Not true! Maybe someone just pretends. Calix will be mine!"
"It's up to you! Push it if you want!"
The two women who were talking left. Suddenly, tears started to fall from my eyes for no reason. I hope they were talking about a different Calix.
My Calix can't do that.
I texted Calix right away to say hello. I was so relieved when she replied and met at our meeting place.
I quickly got ready and went to their building. We still didn't admit to everyone that we were together. They said someone might fight with me. We tried to keep everything a secret.
She was sitting in her seat and looking out the window when I arrived.
"Calix..." I called.
"Hi Baby!" She greeted me and smiled. But it disappeared as soon as I got closer. "Why are your eyes red? Have you been crying?" she asked.
I smiled and shook my head. "Just irritated."
"Then you rubbed it? Hurry!" She took her handkerchief and wiped my eyes.
That's a different Calix... That's right! That's not her, that's different!
Like before, I just watched her while she ate. But not because she was fun to watch, but because there was something on her collar.
Lipstick?
There was a trace of something red. I really didn't want to think that was lipstick, but I'm also a girl and I use it too.
"Is there a problem?" Calix asked. She looked over her shoulder, thinking that's what I was looking at.
"N-no, nothing... Just eat." I said.
But she ignored me. It was like she was looking for something on her shoulder. Until she reached for her collar and saw the trace of red lipstick on it.
"It's nothing... It's just paint." She explained.
I smiled at her. She didn't need to explain. I wasn't thinking about anything else.
He went back to eating and I did the same. He was the one who offered to clean up after.
"Calix..." I called out, handing over the Love Letter.
He had already told me that he really liked reading my letters to him. So even though I couldn't think of anything else to say, I still wrote for him. He took the letter and put it in his pocket. He smiled at me and made me walk out of the room.
He didn't walk me past their building. Maybe someone would see us. I ran into a few students who were talking about Calix. Even though I didn't want to listen, I couldn't help it.
"I heard Calix was with someone else last night."
"I saw him in the park riding his bike. He was giving me a ride with a girl."
"That's none of my business. I saw a kiss behind the gymnasium."
It felt like something was pinching my heart.
I quickly ran to the CR. I wanted to cry. I hope it's a different Calix. I hope it's not the Calix I always wait for at the gate. The one who said I love you to me.
The one who kissed my forehead. The one who held my hand. The one who said we can't be broken no matter what. I hope it's not him.
Because I can't handle it if it's him.