Recently, I opened up to a friend. I told her things I've never shared with anyone. What's strange is that I met her only a week ago, and I told her things I've never spoken about with anyone in my life. Now, I feel this emptiness in my chest, with a lot of anger and sadness. I don't know how I should handle it. I'm a person used to bearing everything in silence; I don't like venting my emotions. I enjoy supporting someone when they're feeling down, but I don't like showing weakness or appearing vulnerable. I know this is wrong; I study psychology, and I understand perfectly how contradictory it is. But it's incredible how our mind knows something, yet we do something else.
What's surprising is how the body expresses itself physically to reflect my feelings. My stomach is all twisted up, I feel like I'm going to vomit, but it's all an emotional reflection; I've barely eaten anything today. I think what I need is to be alone for one or two days, to process everything, and then start therapy. This will help me face everything.
The idea of this 'story' is to create a kind of diary, where we can share how we feel, all from anonymity. I encourage those who want to write to do so; I will publish it with their permission on these pages, and it will serve as a form of support for everyone, to help us cope with burdens, anonymously.