I just got back from my trip to my friends i was very exhausted from the past activities.
Once I stepped out of my friend's car, my eyes widened, my steps were slow. I saw a few full of trash bags and my childhood things that are in the box.
Its like.. It's just trash from our house? Or is it?
I have so many questions in my head that can't be answered i click the door bell too much that my mother got tiring.
"Ugh?! Who the hell-... Oh? It's.. Just Maria.."
Mom looked shocked, she smiled at me like the things in the trash bags were just nothing but trash. Father stepped out and when he saw me he chuckled.
"Needed space, you're just a pig in my house."
He chuckled and his voice has a mocking tone that made my blood boil. Mom looks apologetic
"H-hun! Step inside for me.."
She said almost like she will break down by any seconds now.
I nodded and stepped inside, and when i saw Brando standing near by the stairs looking cocky as ever.
I frown, still staying quiet as mom leads me to the secluded place, that no ears are listening, mom took a deep breath and smiled weakly.
"Hun.. I can Just leave and run with you? If you want."
She said calmy but theres a hint of tiredness in her voice. I smiled and i pat her shoulder.
"Mom.."
I said, my voice was above whisper. While looking directly in her eyes.
"I promise i'll come back and make your living decent again."
She smiled almost tearing up, but i hugged her tightly.
In a few minutes mom escorted me out and tap my shoulder and smiled.
"You got this. Your a grown woman.. Your brother just needs help."
I smiled pretending to be happy by my mom's support, but deep down i was breaking.
Not with rage, nor sadness. But with betrayal, i was betrayed by my father, mother failed to protect me.
It was my birthday that day but i feel like its not, its just.. A day that made me feel worse..
I walked away and grab the trash bags even the box, i texted my friend Jules to come by and pick me up.
It started raining. I can see Brando's reflection from my bedroom, i cant help but tear a bit, even my own room was captured by my brother who is 25 years old above.
I wipe the tears off my face, my nose was reddish my clothes were soaked from the rain drops.
But i didnt care i just wanted to get out of the mess they made. The mess i cant clean, the mess the got my own world severe damanges.
Once Jules arrived i grab my things and shove it in the back of her car, she loom at me pitifully.
She was my bestfriend who would clean a mess she didnt did. A mess that i didnt did, or lets just say she would let a brush stay in her house.
"Oh my.."
She said, i looked at her i was a mess my clothes and my hair were soaked. But i didnt care i just hop in to his car before turning to her.
"Let's go, Jules."
She nodded i loo out the car's window while she started the engine and driving away from the house, i close my eyes and i thought.
Maybe i wasn't enough for this family? Maybe i am not worthy to be apart of it?
"No."
Someone said,
"You're worthy, but you're not in the place you belonged to. You cannot fit with the people that can't even love you."
The voice sounded like my grandmother who always gives me five dollars every year of my birthday.
I open my eyes and didnt realized i was sleeping, my face was a mess, and dark circles under my eyes.
Than thats when i thought, this is my chance to start all over. My chance to live in peace, to make them realize how to lose a daughter like me.
I stand up smelling the coffee and bread from Jule's kitchen.
I brushed my teeth and headed down to the kitchen where i found Jules preferring breakfast, she noticed me and smiled.
"Come on! I thought i know you better! Come here and eat with me!"
Jule's eyes were full of life her face was clear as a glass, and her smile is so brightly i almost doubted myself.
And there i was just standing there with my lifeless eyes and not so clear skin.
I smiled weakly and sat down starting eating, my stomach was still growling even when I was eating by now.
Once we finished I smiled at Jules and looked at me.
"Were you taking that job offered to you?"
Jule looked at my phone full of messages from the big company I hesitated first before replying to her.
I nodded.
"At least.. It gives me a fresh start?"
Jules chuckles nudging my shoulder like i was joking.
"Come on! You're so good at public speaking you can do that!"
Smiled awkwardly like i don't know what to reply to his sarcastic comment.
"But.. I don't know what story should i tell the judges.."
jules think for a moment before replying to me. She wasn't sure how to say things to me.
"How about your life story? How your inner childhood is being mistreated to your new self that got kicked out of your house!"
My eyes brightened from her idea. I nodded relentlessly.
"Of course! That's a great idea! Sure everyone would love it."
I smiled and opened my phone and started to write fast. Jules chuckled and took a sip from her coffee.
"Right! I got 21 days before deadline."
I smiled and smiled back at me giving me a proud look on her face.
"Good luck, Mrs Maria! Or Mrs Writter! You gotta nail on this one!"