Ariana's pov
I was supposed to be studying, not staring at
at the same words over and over again.
I sighed resting my chin in my hands, trying hard to focus on the questions, until I heard a soft knock on the window.
I turned to see, sebastian climbing the window like he did when we were ten.
A huge smile graced my lips as I stood up to open the window for him.
" Hey Ari" he said while pulling me into a hug the moment he got inside.
My heart skipped a beat as I breathed him in, his cologne always did something to me. Like butterflies doing rollercoasters in my tummy.
That's what he did to me. Without even trying.
" What are you doing here?" I asked the moment we broke the hug , even though I want him to stay here and hug me forever.
He raised his perfect thick brows " what ? Can't I see my best friend?"
And that shattered my heart.
Best friend
That was all I was to him, but he was so much more than a friend to me ....not that he would ever know.
I kept a straight face not showing any of my emotions to him.
"So, what are you doing?" He asked, his brown eyes illuminating gold under the lights, made my heart skip a beat again.
I shrugged, then his eyes landed to my open biology notes, were I'd been sitting.
" Oh. Book nerd" he teased as he punched me a little which made me groan from the little pain it caused.
Sebastian flopped down to my bed, his biceps, bulging out of his white t shirt.
And oh lord, I could help but stare, maybe drool as he messed up his already messy brown hair.
I gulped.
" Do you know where I can get a heart" he suddenly said, breaking me out of my reverie.
I raised my brows" what?"
He sat up, facing me with that messy look had going on, that was making my knees weak.
"You know heart thing" he muttered again making me more confused, even though I want to jump on his bones right now.
I went to sit where I originally was before he came, knocking on my window.
"Heart pendent" I completed.
" Yeah that" he said, while rubbing the back of his neck. Something he does when his super excited.
A smile tugged my lips as I remembered tomorrow was my birthday, maybe he wants to give me a gift like always does.
"Hmm..I wonder what you want to use a heart pendent for?" I stated, feigning ignorance, that maybe the pendent was for me.
A huge grin lit on his lips and I tell you if I wasn't seating down, I wouldve fainted by now.
"Well..." he started
I raised my brows in anticipation of him saying the words that it was for me.
"Well..." I continued.
" it's a surprise, I can't ruin a surprise " he responded, making me Pout.
" C'mon , tell me you promised not to hide anything from me " I pouted, using a child-like voice.
" well I promised that when we were what?, eight?" He muttered making me roll my eyes.
" Are you gonna tell me or you're going to sit there talking shit of my ear." I muttered, which he gave a huge grin that flipped my stomach.
"Fine, your gonna find out anyway if I don't tell you" he muttered which I responded
by giving a shreepish grin.
He rolled his eyes " such a brat " muttered under his breath.
" It's Dyla" he said.
" the pendent is for Dyla" he finished and my heart crushed into a million pieces.
Dyla is Sebastian's new girlfriend. She a nice girl living around here in Chicago. Everyone adores her, everyone except me.
It may be because she's practically has my man wrapped around her fingers.
But one thing is for sure, their relationship won't last.
I blinked, hiding the years that was about to slip from my eyes " oh, Dyla" I muttered before facing back to my biology note.
He didn't seem to see the change of my emotions, as he continued
"Tomorrow is her birthday, so am planning a huge party for her, and am going to give her a heart pendant"
I nodded trying my best to look ok, while my heart was cracking more and more the way he spoke about her.
Like she was his world...
While he was mine, but he couldn't see it.
Her birthday.... What about mine.
He never forgets mine.
And now he's throwing a party for her and not me.
I choked back the sob that threatened to escape my throat by clearing my throat.
I forced a smile as I muttered"So, you should give her something extraordinary, like a diamond, like a Dior necklace, not some typical heart pendant"
His eyes lit up, he stood up from my bed
" That's a great idea Ari"
He dragged me from my cushion and spinning me around his shoulder.
" Seb " I muttered in surprise.
" You're so brilliant Ari" he muttered as he dropped me.
I rolled my eyes, trying my best to hide my emotions
"What do you think expect, am Ariana"
He flicked my forehead "ouch, what was that for?" I asked
" for being a brat and smart" he muttered.
" your the brat" I muttered while punching his arms, which didn't make him groan in pain.
He just stared at me amused " Is that all you got, Ari?"
I glared at him jokingly " I hate you!" I muttered. Which was a lie.
I could never hate him, even though he breaks my heart over and over again.
" such a liar!" He said while trying to hug me which I avoided, though it shattered my heart that did, I really craved his touch, but I had to cover it by being annoyed with him.
" Don't touch me, Arnold!" I muttered trying harder to avoid his touch.
But my efforts became fruitless as he lifted me off the ground and spinned me.... again.
" Seb, drop me!" I yelled at him, even though I was internally enjoying it.
He didn't listen as he continued " Seb" I muttered giggling.
Suddenly my door opened revealing my brother " oh my goodness!" Nick muttered in annoyance.
Seb stopped twirling me and dropped me, while holding me in place, because of how dizzy I was.
" sup , Nick" Sab muttered
Nick massage his forehead " don't sup Nick me, look at the time" he pointed to my digital wall clock which showed 12:30
" Twelve- thirty, and you guys are making a whole lot of noise, don't you guys have school Tomorrow or sum" he rambled , making me roll my eyes after regaining my composure.
"Look who's talking. You threw a party in the house when Mom and dad weren't around and that same day I had exams going on." I muttered
"Well how was I supposed to know when you're having exams"
" Well I dunno, maybe when you were trying to get me to clean up the party" I muttered
" Ooh , suck burn!" Sebastian muttered which gave him a glare from Nick.
" leave my room" I said throwing Him a pillow that was beside my bed, which he dodged effortlessly.
" I'm leaving, but keep your voice down, you don't want to wake Mom and dad up"
I rolled my eyes, because he was despite how annoying he is, it's the truth, if Mom and dad wakes up, all of us are dead, because we are awake by this time.
" fine, we'll keep our voice down Robert" I said.
" don't call me that, Sunday" he muttered before closing the door of my room.
" Uhhh... I hate him" I muttered while turning back to Seb
" He does make a point, Sunday" Seb said teasingly and I threw him a pillow which directly hit him in the face.
" Don't call me that Arnold" I muttered then he jokingly rolled his eyes, which I found hot.
Super hot.
"Tomorrow is the day, then" he said suddenly.
My birthday, he remembered.
" yeah, I can't wait" I said very excited with a huge smile on my face
" Dyla, would fall more in love with me" he responded with a super geeky smile on his face, which broke me.
My smile fell, while I played with the heam if my nighties.
"Yeah can't wait " I muttered, with emotions in my voice.
He stood up and kissed my forehead. "It's getting late now, ari. You should rest now" he muttered before heading towards the window which he climbed through to get to my room earlier.
"I'll call you tomorrow about the party tomorrow" he muttered before going down the window.
Tears, gushed down my face, he didn't even remember my birthday.
I switched off my bedroom lights, wanting not even the light to see me cry over someone, who would never love me the way I love him.
Quiet sobs escaped my lips as I laid down on my bed, crying, till I couldn't cry no more.
I guess the darkness cared for me, because it drawer me towards it, by making my eyes fluttered shut, pulling me to a dreamless sleep.
***
The rays of sunlight,flashed through my face, making my eyes, my swollen eyes flutter open.
Sitting up on my bed, remembering today was my eighteenth birthday. A age I was waiting, the day I would confess my feelings to the person I love.
Dear diary,
When I turn eighteen, I'm going to confess my feelings for Seb, cause I love him so much, that it physically hurts.
I remembered the words I wrote in my diary five years ago.
I was twelve basically finding out that I was madly in love with him.
Tears streamed down my face as I recalled him saying her name 'dyla' like it was the only sweet thing in this world.
Heart pendant, her gift.
Knock , knock.
The knock broke me out of my reverie .
I quickly cleaned my tears before saying.
" come in"
My dad appeared, looking handsome like he usually does every morning, with his white robe and messy black hair that I inherited.
His warm brown eyes, stared at me with adoration.
" my princess"he said as he sat down on my bedand pulling me in tight hug that I could barely breathe.
" Dad.. can't breathe" I muttered
He quickly released his grip on me.
" Happy birthday" he muttered before kissing my forehead.
A small smile graced my lips, " thanks dad" I muttered.
"I can't believe my mochi, is eighteen.
oh my god!, you're gonna get married someday and leave me alone with Nick" he muttered, making me laugh.
" Stop dad, at least, I'm not getting married any soon now" I muttered, earning a huge smile from him, then a worried look.
" Are you ok princess, do you want anything?" Be asked making my smile to fade, did he notice anything wrong on my face, that maybe that I cried all through the whole night.
" why would you ask that dad?"
He lifted his hands to touch my face "your burning up, I think you have a fever" he said
" I'm fine dad" I muttered trying to reassure him.
" I don't think you are, you look pale and your eyes look puffy"
Of course he did notice.
" I'm fine dad, I was just watching a romcom movie that had a sad ending" I said, lying my way out of this situation.
He stared at me then sighed " don't cry over such things ok "
" how can you say that dad, am just a girl, I have the right to watch those things, so don't restrict me" I muttered while standing up from the bed.
An amused smile played on his face " oh now you're giving me sass right now young lady? " he asked
I turned around to stared at him looking at him up and down then turning towards the bathroom door and shutting it .
" Ariana Fox Sunday " he called out my full name from outside the bathroom door, while I giggled.
" go away dad" I muttered
" Fine then, just get ready, were heading out for your birthday" he muttered, before leaving the room.
I sighed.
I stared at my reflection in my bathroom mirror.
Dad was right, I do look sick,
Love sick.
My heart wants Seb but , I don't think he's ever going to be mine.