love first time

So apparently this is the beginning of a new chapter in my life. I have just completed my tenth and now I'll be in high school finally, literally the excitement can't be described in words. A new place with a lot of new people- "will I be able to make new friends or a boyfriend perhaps." The first day of my high school was good I mean just good..... I had a hard time looking for the classroom thankfully I found an old friend of mine i ran to him and asked if he knew and yes he did, quickly showing me the way he departed I thanked him and moved towards the room as soon as I entered the room the only thing that was going on my mind was "shit there are so many people looking at me, I don't even know them" I felt anxious I went and quietly sat in the first row and yeah I had to sit in the first bench on my first day ughhh- "so frustrating " i murmured n sat down then two girls came after and sat beside me, my first bench mates the first girl started a conversation and talked to me she was kind we introduced ourselves " hi I am Diyana and you?" She replied instantly " hi I'm Nisha pleased to meet you", I was happy atleast i wasn't alone in this entire school after a few minutes the bell rang we had to go for assembly, everything was so nice and easy going but..... Huffffff then the real problem arrived it was none other than my ex, yeah it was him- " he still looks the same just grew a bit taller", he had dark brown eyes, fair skintone and how can I forget about his small d****, to be honest I hated him at that point because he was always so full of himself and recently we just had an argument because he wanted to patch up seriously why would I even like a guy who's just 5'5 if I'm not wrong, who dumped me just before our finals saying that I wasn't giving him much attention and time - "goddd dammittt I am ruined maybe the new start is not entirely new" he stared at me for a while and went his own way because yeah he had nothing to do with me anymore, and i too tried to avoid him and didn't let him noticed that I already saw him from a mile away...