I remember back then
We were in two different schools.
Playing the same games
But with a few very different rules.
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And...
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We used to chase the same goal
Working with two different tools.
In the end, it didn't matter
We were two broken and indifferent fools...
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Back when our love went round for round.
It was built like a roly-po...
Up, down, back, and forth.
Fuck it...
Round and round we'd go...
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It was a broken, hollowed dance.
Slow enough to rock my soul...
The whole time, it was just a lie.
Dipped in burnt orange
Like fox and faux...
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And...
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I thought I knew you,
But you burned down all my halls
To no end.
I never felt so low,
You left me high and dry
With no friends...
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This feeling's new to me
To function with a fractured heart.
To walk it day to day
And fake those smiles.
Yeah, that's my favorite part.
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And...
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I gave it all to you,
You hooked me with your morbid art.
You played your part
And played me like a puppet...
Till I fell apart.
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I stared up at you
Blankly as I smoked that dreary cigarette...
Wondering wearily
If my love for you
I could just forget...
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I washed my feet nightly
Just to try
To stave off the nightmares.
Baptized my soul in your depravity
Hoping that someday
You might care
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And...
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I think a part of me
Killed itself then and right there
And...
Wanting you beside me
Was just met with pain
That was not fair
And...
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You fractured me.
Kept on attacking me.
What did I do that you had to get back at me?
How could you call me such horrid things casually?
Can't you see
My heart was dying?
A tragedy.
Yet, tragically...
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Bah.
It doesn't matter...
I tried to give my world to you
Dissected on a platter...
I thought your love was overdue
You didn't want the latter.
You didn't want the best of me,
It only would get badder.
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I meant worse...
Ran its course...
Didn't know what you wanted for sure
And in that confusion
You left me delusional.
You should know,
It was like nightly torture...
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You were shredding my heart
I couldn't let you go.
I was chasing that high
I was fox,
You were faux.
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And I cried in that shower,
And you never knew.
And I lost all that sleep,
It was all over you.
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Let me down
I could drown
In that pain that you left.
Me on read
All I said
Was I want something else.
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With you
Something else with you...
Something else new with you.
All on the floor with you...
What could I do with you?
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All in my bed.
In my car.
In my head.
Far away.
Never stayed.
All the false things you said.
Full of dread.
Fox & faux...