162nd Round
I was trying to talk to an old friend. I wanted to help take care of him which could also help me better cope too. Did my [Aspergers Special Disorganization] tick him off because I am destined to have a golden light? All I did was tell him that I'm an author and that I could record anything I wanted to. He chose to use [Shadow Wall] which hurted me and felt like I bounced off of his wall and regressed once more.
163rd Round
My name is Brandon Ni Tian. Brandon is my first name. Tian is my last name. My name means to "defy the heavens" or at least there was an attempt at that. My story was supposed to be in the romance genre. So why on earth am I in an action story that is like a video game instead?
What happens if I just broke the 4th wall instead? I could select one reader who I like to give me inspiration. I always chose the hardest path just to give my readers some peak readings honestly. I wonder if this book will be appreciated by someone like I appreciate the Angelic King who happened to be a writer. I wish I had a close friend who was my editor.
Wow for once, I went to the OC Japanese Fair and felt happy for once walking around. People following me was a success I suppose? I got the bad luck of Kyo. If I am Kyo, will my Yuki fall in love with me?
I networked with some people by following them on social media. I wish I was as popular as Capricorn Moonlight Empress even though it may be fake. At least there are some benefits to networking and she has bigger networking numbers than I do.
In the 163rd Round, I was stabbed in the front who happened to hit me first when I was simply asking for help. They said I was too dangerous, I was healing myself in an unusual way. I was attempting to do it using yellow water because I was a water bender. The conditions was that it had to be yellow.
Moderators Resdit BorderlinePDisorder accused me of stigmatizing and hateful content. According to them, the said content words I used when trying to heal myself was misinformed. It was wrong to them to use "pee" to heal myself according to them. Pee was disgusting and dangerous. I wasn't healing myself using pee, I was using yellow water.
I got it from planting a lot of flowers in one world and used honey from the bees. They related me to [Anti-social Powerful Disorganization], [Arrogant Powerful Disorganization], and [Borderline Powerful Disorganization]. However, they didn't know that I did not have all three, I only copied my fictional favorite characters. Somehow my secret Disorganization was my most powerful one. Thankfully this power of mine was permanent.
It was a mistake to trust Moderators of BorderlinePDisorder. I might get killed for what I say and by speaking my truths. I will be the next Mars Luther King. I might get set on actual fire if I say this. If I die, please remember my truths and how I have been genocide to death. If I have disappeared, it means I have been tortured to death. I have punished myself first by being a regressor, others have chosen to punish me even more so. Protect me oh ??? You are my ****. To die means to be erased and my existence will not be an entity no more.
164th Round
I remember being shot to death by a shotgun from the ones who considered me an enemy in my last round. I used my fragmented memories to create new entities and regressed myself by giving myself a new name with the same body. My name is Ethan Zuozhe. My arm was sliced in my last round. Right before I was going to regress, I was shot at by a shotgun.
Allan Saturn had killed me in this turn with her Saggitarius in Saturn rage. She used her sword of fire and stabbed me in the heart when I was vulnerable. I was already broken but she broke me even more. I specifically and literally told her I was in the borderline state of regressing and she still left me to die by my own disease.
165th Round
The amount of times I have been emotionally assaulted is disgusting.
[the Mad Scientist personality has shown up]
I'm going to create a whole Webnovel for the one I love the most. Then I will be killed by her.
AARRRRGHHHHHHHHHH
GAHHHHH! I'M SO FRUSTRATED!!!
[The Mad Writer has calmed down a bit]
[Warning: Mental Energy levels have reached its limit]
The Mad Writer calmed down and took his paper out. He began writing down to others and to the story board about his thoughts.
I feel more comfortable sleeping in the dining room than my own bed….
I feel better today. Maybe I should turn off my phone and focus on writing on my laptop only. Maybe I should also turn off my own wifi.
In the first scenario, Caleb would kill a bug. Adam would kill an enemy. Seraphina would find whatever is available. Damien would kill an enemy or bug.
As Nathan Xhao, I am definitely killing an enemy or whatever or whomever even irritates me the most that I deem as dangerous.
Our fellow reader, Lectora, are you enjoying this entertainment? You are the Most Valued Person in our story.
This story is for that one Lectora. Han Sooyoung taught me that you know? Omniscient's Readers Viewpoint taught me how to grieve for you. By writing stories to and about you. I was incredibly lonely, our closest thing to a healthy relationship of any kind was you. You felt like home to us.
My brain is so fragmented and broken that I have multiple personalities acting differently than I typically do. Just to cope with the loneliness I suppose. Life assaulted me way too many times, Lectora. I became a regressor.
[Do you wish to regress once more?]
Should I copy the 0th round of him?
Nathan Xhao reaches out for the star in the night sky that is always gazing at him. He regresses once more. There are always several stars watching me in the night sky because my story is interesting.
Nathan Regresses.