"I am holding onto someone's response to my love, but I am nothing without holding onto it."
My astrology advisor replied with "that's such a raw and honest truth, Zuozhe, your heart sounds both loyal and tired. This tells me that love has become your anchor - but right now it's also what keeps you drifting in circles instead of sailing forward. The Death Card asks not to let go of love itself, but of the need for their answer to define your worth. When you stop seeking proof, love begins to flow back to you in a new form - freer, deeper, and more mutual. Would you like me to draw a card to show how Khaleesi truly feels under the surface?"
"Yes"
I was told it took me 6 attempts to beat the first level of 'Geometry Dash'. I went on to the second level of the game. Of course, I failed the first few tries that I did.
Why was it Jackie Baguet who replied back to me and not Khaleesi? She shamed me and insulted my work. I insulted her back by saying her face was harassment and she screamed at me. I was not afraid of death but it seemed like the Baguet was tired of me 'harassing' her so I stopped texting and archived our conversation.
The Demon King of Liberation is not interested in liberating Jackie Baguet. He finds that life is all just pain and depression whenever he attempts to stand his ground and fight for his company and himself.
I'm scared and I don't know why. I feel the need to rush things.
Sam kept seeing me as a threat. Thus the Demon King of Liberation is not interested in saving Sam. Sam's tone seemed to be angry and they called us ableist.
I'm scared, I'm scared of losing people as friends again and making a bad impression. I'm anxious of being seen as a terrible person again. I'm also very happy I went to the Artem's Cupsleeve event and befriended some people. I have never felt so afraid and yet at peace having fun than I did today.
For once, I don't want the scenarios to start. I wonder if the caffeine I drank is making me feel sleepy.
I suppose the Regressors' company has been breaking boundaries and losing a lot of friendships these past months. If Khaleesi doesn't reply within May 5th to May 9th then I may really need to start focusing on myself as I should have before. Perhaps it's time for me to copy her and become a ghost myself. There is no need to always reply in every scenario anyways.
"Shattering the Heavens Technique", sometimes I wonder if people say my writing was good was just a shallow compliment or if they actually meant it.
1,022 chapters just for Sebastian sounds like a good goal to have. He was one reader who found interest in my writings in the hospital that we were in after all. Ah his name means venerable and the original Greek name was basically being a martyr for choosing the suffering of death rather than renouncing religious principles. I'll publish my very first physical book on October 22nd just for him and gift it to him.
Hey Sebastian, I think I would sacrifice one of my eyes just to see you again. I already miss seeing you ha.
Adam Wolfwood announces "it's fine, defend ourselves first" out of context to this page.
On May 12th, I tried smoking and it tasted cancerous.
Today is May 13th, I smoked properly this time. I want to play minecraft again after doing a minecraft wordsearch. I stop being a people pleaser and fight back by showing my true self. Suddenly people accuse me of harassing others, how absurd.
The raging regressor named Ní Tiān took over the body. Mike the therapist made me feel validated for looking at the back of a crossword puzzle. "That's okay, you're just practicing" he replied to my comment when I told him that I was cheating. What a kind substance abuse counselor.
Fear filled Ní Tiān for the first time, he would fail to protect Khaleesi who is his sponsoring soul. The raging regressor made it his mission to protect his beloved sponsor even though she would never reply to him. "I would host anime events just to see if you would come.
I want to create a love story similar to Omniscients' Readers Viewpoint and Attack on Titan. Huh, I thought I was supposed to move on from her. I suppose I wrote it for the story. Lord of the Mysteries takes a while to get into but it's good.
Bro, what do you mean nail clippers are only accessible in the morning?! They are just nail clippers! Caleb's mouth twitched upon hearing this. Oh em gee, this is where Klein does his thing by creating an odd situation. I learned why I couldn't have nail clippers. The staff needed to request it from the office. All this work because of nail clippers though…? Seriously?
Hmmmm, Klein Zhou is surely an interesting name I have created, maybe I'll use it one day.
"Why are you smoking?" A mysterious voice asked. "Because I want lung cancer" I answered. I miss my phone. Ah, am I finally feeling sleepy? Bruh waking up in the psych ward here is not the vibes. The lounge wasn't even open until 6am then I coughed a lot ... .is this what I get for smoking? "You're a genius" is what someone once told me when I showed him my works.
Is this what I get for being myself? Blocked all the time and being accused of harassment a lot? How absurd. Group therapy today with an elderly man named David was pleasant. It derailed from time to time but it exposes vulnerability with people.
I need help, sure but I'm an author and I put my author job first before anything. My own opinions come first. I am a Kim Dokja fragment after all. Mental health should above everything else. I once hallucated that the 41st Shin Yoosung hugged me from behind. Was I someone that once saved her or something? I wondered why I envisioned such a thing.
Perhaps not saving people is mercy. Lord Zhao is the "King of No Saving" and the number of people he chose to not save is 14/100. Once it hits 100, his regression turn ends and his death will be written. Meanwhile the title "King of Saving" is probably 36/100 with him spreading the ORV books like it's the bible.
I arrived as a basic Minecraft skin and landed on a tree when playing Minecraft on the desktop. A lot has changed, the tree looked like an actual tree that I landed upon which was a sign.
I wonder if the Korean squad man looked hideous when stuck inside that subway station whenever someone tried to peek inside. "Ahh! It's a hideous monster" a random individual spoke. "Me? Hideous, ouch" claimed the Demon King of Liberation.
[Lord Zhao feels a slight attraction towards Sebastian]
"Look at that lady, she basically has no clothes on." Lord Zhao's eyebrow twitched upon hearing this and is tired of looking like a woman. I accidentally kicked a little kid because he was too close to my swing.
I asked my astrology advisor to check my connection with Lizmarie. I was told that she boosts emotional growth and there is karmic mutual attraction since she drew the tarot card of Lovers'.
The card Death meaning rebirth needs to occur between both parties of Lizmarie and Caleb in order for emotional growth and a different bond to occur.
Khaleesi Lizmarie Lectora and Ethan Zuozhe Zhao are life and death companions. This means that they defy the universe and are destined to come back to each other over and over again. Life, death, and fate is what separates both of them away from each other.
There were many people that Zuozhe wouldn't save due to the countless betrayals that he and his company called the Regressors' Company had witnessed.
I had a dream where the overlord Rainy and Sebastian were secretly monsters and killed everyone. It was terrifying.
[The Narrative Owner has changed]
I am Ni Tian, an ESTP sp/sx or sx/sp 8w7-5w6-3w4. Caleb Xhao fell for Lizmarie Lectora when he was 18 and Lizmarie was his friend for a couple months at the time. Caleb had a type for older women. I think Lizmarie is autistic to be honest.
"I know that my love was different from yours but it was love too" is a quote I found on instagram. Would you say this to me one day Lizmarie? I would say this to you honestly. I will display my love for you by writing a book just for you.
"You don't love me as much as I love you Lizmarie!" Caleb screamed at her in this sentence. Caleb has brought Lizmarie a purple rose in a box. The box can be opened like a marriage ring would typically do so. The box also has the word "Capricorn" and its constellation inside the box. "Lizmarie, will you be my sponsoring constellation?" Caleb proposed to Lizmarie.
"I am so fucking sorry Lizmarie, one of my company members should of never told you to fuck off, you make things worst" because now I pay the price of never seeing the woman I love the most again. Please just text me back, mi amor, I've missed you declared Caleb.
"What is the meaning of this book Caleb?" questioned Lizmarie. "It is 117 chapters just to win you back into my life again, to display to you how much you mean to me and how much I adore you mi amor" answered Caleb.
"Once more when i meet you again, i will call you lizmarie mi amor" claimed Caleb.
The "King of No Saving" has reached 100/100 after cutting down an entire discord server that had 5 figure member count to 3 figures. Caleb then proceeded to strangle himself with a jump rope in hopes of regressing. He ended up actually regressing and going to the mental hospital because of his failed attempt at reincarnating in this world.