Exams have started and I'm super stressed. What if I do badly, what if my mom gets angry at me for not doing so well. All these thoughts run through my brain before and after each exam. When I get home I coop up in my room to study and maybe work on myself a bit on some days.
I've learned how to keep my cool and stop worrying about everything. Now I'm more calm and able to face everything that happens. Honestly I think I'm doing well, I was just overreacting. My health is going great and no more hospital visits in the middle of the night anymore. They've reduced my meds and I can finally be normal again or as normal as I can get.
Meg constantly visits and has her ways of getting me into trouble. I missed her so much. Her and Ethan made peace too there will be no more on and offs, it was too much to keep up with any way ,she hangs out with me more now. She is over almost every day. They are now both single and proud and now I won't be invited to third wheel on them anymore and hopefully they'll stop trying to get me a boyfriend as I don't think I need one.
and I'm going to see my brother and Father for Christmas and I just can't wait
People started asking about my relationship with Ayden and there wasn't much to tell. Ayden and I aren't talking anymore and he seems to have moved on. He doesn't have time for me and doesn't even bother to talk to me unless his friends force it. I see him around the halls now and then but I try to avoid him and any awkward conversation that may start up especially after that kiss. I wish I had pushed him off sooner.
Was this mess ever going to get cleared up of do I just accept any and everything that's going to happen to me.