I try to stay sane, but most times it's hard,
destiny told the other caller, its not just that, he drives me crazy and I don't think there's anything in the world that I would do that he wouldn't find SOME ERROR in it's hard,you know what? I'll call you back, she said and hung up.
her life had been series of one trauma to another, first her bestfriend moved, to like a different country entirely to go "Find her roots" Nigeria or something, she didn't get it, she left when she genuinely needed her the most she knows it wasn't her fault but the timing couldn't have been any worse, because she was suffering from depression.
when Annie left, all she could do everyday was eat her lunch under the table in the library, and she'd still get kicked out for chewing too loudly, then the pandemic started and she had to stay home for months, has a girl already suffering from depression it only grew worse for her, everyday her "safe space" Got smaller, and smaller, until she got claustrophobic and broke down one day in tears,
why was she sad?, she missed her friend, and her mom and dad where trying really hard not to go broke because, seriously speaking nobody really planned or saved ahead for a pandemic, even with their pharmacy they had to cut somes staffs before the government placed a state wide lockdown, Seattle only got smaller for her and smaller, and smaller till she got claustrophobic again.
Zoom classes were all a blur, she was failing maths, A.p biology and chemistry, three of the subjects she had never failed, was this her rock button? she often asked herself
she went on walks once in awhile but only because she didn't want to forget how to, and then after Almost a year the lockdown was removed, was she happy? No, but she wasn't sad either, atleast now her parents wouldn't have to use her college fundings because they almost did to keep the house running.
In these times the only thing that gave her joy even in the smallest way was stalking jason on instagram , Jason was the love of her life, it was love at first sight for her,
that day she was waiting out for Annie who was running late probably because she and boyfriend couldn't get their hands of each other, and suddenly it began to rain she was confused on which direction was the quickest to run to get back into school because like her luck she was standing in the middle of the field, and she had already lost any hope of not getting wet, but then Jason her knight in shining armor swooped in with his leather jacket covering her with it to help her out the rain they where both sucked, but, it was the most romantic thing any guy had ever done for her,
she told him thank you and for a minute there their eyes locked, and she thought he'd ask for her name but he didn't he just smiled and said
"you're welcome" then ran off to the direction of the gym, he might have probably forgotten but, she never did.
*****
walking down the Halls of chesam, destiny knew things where never gonna be the same, with zero friends, and a failing grade she had got to step up her game if she wanted to get into a good college.
the first day back she wore sunglasses, not because of the sun, but because of her eye bags recently she had been having insomnia, and sleep paralysis, she looked like she hadn't slept for days, and she didn't want the judgemental stares of people or their fake sympathy either, so she came up with a solution that worked best for her.
DAY 2 was the same,
MOM!, am off to prison she called out, I mean school she quickly added,
as she took the almost burnt toast and dragged herself through the door she looked at her bicycle for a while and thought about how she was too lazy to ride, she just crossed to the left, and stood waiting for the bus. every body were either talking gleefully or doing a Snapchat, she rolled her eyes behind her sun glasses as she sat by the window which she hated, because dirt always got in her eyes, but she sat their still, because it reminded her of Annie, and that was something to hold unto.
The boy who say next to her was someweird guy eating peanut butter off his clothes, atleast even he had friends he wouldn't Stop talking about how his YouTube channel just had a major breakthrough with hundred subscribers, she regrets most of her life choices and today this was one of them,
she didn't get his name but she also didn't care. After social studies, she went to the girls restroom,to collect her thoughts you know that feeling when you sit on the toilet seat and all your thoughts just comes flooding in clearly? that was what she was having, until she got rudely interrupted,
ewwww, someone said as they continued hitting the door, are you taking a dump in there? your so weird taking a dump in school, the person said and laughter was heard after,
destiny looked up to the ceiling and asked "why me"? because she knew that voice, anybody with ears would know that voice.
—it was mim's, "mim Kim" stupid name if you'd ask me she thought as she bit her lips nervously, she slowly opened the door and she saw mim and her friends, applying lipstick while looking at the mirror hanging above the washing hand sink, she walked slowly,
urmmm don't come close to me till you've washed your hands, mim orders in disgusted tune,
destiny inhaled as she tried washing her hands acting all pretty like she's never pooped in her life before, fucking hypocrite, she thought angrily,
Has she stormed out of the restroom, she saw people staring at her and some were giggling, she didn't understand, she knew she was wearing sleeves on sweatpants but that didn't deserve this much attention, she was panicking, but she stood strong, she wasn't gonna let these mean, hypocritical kids get to her, she ignored them and tried walking away when someone grabbed her by the butt,
What the fuck?,
she turned around angrily
"I urmm" the person tried talking,
save it ass !
she flared, is this some kind of prank? she asked and turned to leave
but this guy was persistent as he tried grabbing her butt again, she turned around almost as quickly as he started and slapped his hands which made his phone fly all the way across the hall,
Shiiit ,shit shit!!! she screamed in her head I'm so sorry she apologized as she walked through the claustering gossips to find the phone,
these people saw her struggling and Nobody offered to help her, she hated them, she finally found the phone and walked back to the guy, who was still standing there hands in his pockets, some other dude was right besides him,
here's your ermm phone? she said as she streached out the phone or whatever was left of it,
he looked at her, and even if she was wearing shades she felt like he was looking right into her soul,
'when are you buying me a new phone'? he asked,
does words shattered her, and she immediately recognized the him, he was Kyle, Kyle Peterson.
WHAT? pay you? this wouldn't have happened if you didn't try to sexually assault me, she defended,
he inhaled, I was trying to help, a move I regret, now when are you getting me a new phone? he asked again mentaining his stand
" it cost 2500 dollars that excludes the casing which is 1500 dollars" his friend added,
She looked up to him,
I'm not paying for a phone that got damaged because of you, and you didn't try to help me you lier she spat, throwing the phone at his feet,
he just stood there looking at her as she walked away.
when she was out of the halls and in an empty class she realized he did try to help, her underwear was sticking out when she left the bathroom in an hurry.
******
The news was heartbreaking to her parents when she told them about what happened her mother complained about not being able to afford that kind of money, they just started balancing life with the pharmacy store,
her dad said nothing he only told her to apologise, because sincerely that was the one thing she didn't do, so she decided to apologise, sorry always makes everything better, she inhaled and concluded that she would apologise tomorrow.
"Can I talk to you" ?she asked him standing in front of his reserved table at the cafeteria,
he didn't answer because he was engroved in his phone, another phone? and the exact type she accidentally destroyed? how can he get a new phone in less than a day and it was a limited edition of the iPhone, alrighty obviously all she needed to do was apologise because he clearly doesn't need her money, or so she thought,
ermm I just wanted to say I'm really sorry and I over reacted am not usually like this I am just going through somethings rig....,
"why are you wearing shades? it's not even sunny" his friend asked
" ermm I have eye bags" she replied trying to get back to her apology
so you are here with my money? Kyle asked,
what? no, no I don't I don't have that kind of money come on Kyle you don't even need it she said trying to control her tone,
so you don't have my money? he asked her as she remained silent,
okay you can't get me my money, nor get me the new phone, so you have to work for me, that's the only way I see it, he said dropping his phone now looking at her,
what?
she asked genuinely confused,
it's either you pay up, or you become my personal assistant till we graduate to college, let's say if I was to pay you, 100 dollars every months you still wouldn't be able to pay me back ,he explained with a smug expression on his face,
you can't honestly believe I would agree to that? destiny scoffed we are in the same class, I'm not gonna work under you, it's absurd even for you, she said judgyly,
then you'll have to pay up before the end of the week he said and got up to leave,
fuck!!!!!!! she screamed, in her head,
FINE!!!, she whisper yelled and walked away, Wondering if she would live to regret this decision.