Sometimes I feel like I need to die...
I could leap from the 21st
Simply fall from the sky.
But in doing that I'd die terrified.
That's not the way I'd want to go...
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And I feel like there aren't many people who would mind.
If I swallowed half a bottle,
If I drank some Iodine.
Call me crazy but in counting
I can think of only nine.
Who would truly even care If I took my very life?
But that's not really how I'd like to be remembered...No.
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But to think of it, sleeping pills could easily do the job.
I'd have a bit of time to clean my room before I got drowsy.
So when whoever found me,
Found me, they would think me not a slob
They'd do the math and see that I took so many, it would be astounding.
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The very last way I'd like to go would be burning or drowning!
Burning is way too horrible and I'd be ash when they found me.
And I can't fathom choking on water till darkness closed around me...
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I don't want to go painfully...
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Maybe I'm just being selfish...
Or maybe I don't have much left
Beggars can't be choosers
Especially when you choose death.
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Who am I fooling...
Suicide is not an option for me
As much as I would like to leave
I have a few who still need me.
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So I'll suck it up and keep going
In this life, never knowing
When better times will start flowing...