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Chapter 107 - Forever run.

You got a new radio.

I bought another Gundam kit.

Yeah we argued yesterday

But today we saw the end of it. 

And

You used to read my journals back when we were just friends.

I think I left a part of myself back in that dimension.

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We walked to get pizza at least once a month, it seemed

And

I would think of you so much, my mind would paint such vivid dreams

And

It didn't matter what the weather was like or even the season

You had a man back then, subconsciously, I helped you cheat

And

I didn't want to leave.

But I'll forever run.

Run. 

I'll run. 

Run. I'll forever run.

Because you'll never love me deeply enough

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I'll never really be the one...

Or is that all inside of my head?

I have such big feelings.

It can't end here

It's just begun.

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I am insecure

Because you knocked 

Over my confidence.

That shit is broken...

Yeah, that shit is broken.

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It wasn't on a pedestal 

Yet still too high

To fall from.

Too many tears, it's soaked in.

Soaked in.

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Liquor 

It is so much quicker

So much to say.

One more sip

One more shot

Our tongues become much slicker. 

But yesterday.

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It was a little different.

You were calmer

I was high as ever

I could read your temperament 

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But I'll forever run

Because I never wanted this sort of feeling for us.

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You used to tell me about all of the ways that he hurt you

And I never got to remember them all. 

I simply couldn't remember them all.

You read my journals back in the heat of the summer days

I didn't get to study before the test in the much cooler fall. 

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I can't get out

Of our memories 

Out of what could have be.

I mean...

What could have been?

I shake it all off and wake up to lingering thoughts here once again.

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