The feeling of being alone all the time has had a negative impact on my personality. It always blocks me to make a simple initiative to be in contact with my siblings. As I can't forget their actions and reactions towards me sine I was born up till now. I couldn't forget their first refusal of my mom's pregnancy, the day when they knew about it. Besides their negligence when they got my news of leaving Morocco. Also their dis acceptance of coming back home after twelve years of homesickness. The disappointment that happened to them when they knew about my decision of marriage. What's more the birth of my first son, which was caused for them a shock. All these events obliged me to keep a great distance between me and them. Although I from time to another try to neglect all and be in contact with then even by a mobile. However that, I can't now deny the negative influence on my personality as a whole.
