Kai quickly finds a medium, in the fandom it was stated that if you want to pray with the lord of the silver, and make sure he/she can hear your prayers, you need to had at least something like pure silver .
And Kai quickly found it at the table on the right sides of his bed were the lumps and other stuff was laying. There are a silver small swords, ingrave with mysteries patterns resting at the top of pillow.
He hurriedly walked towards the table, and quickly grabbed the small silver swords, and without hesitation he stabbed at his owned hands after all his enemy now is the time itself so any hesitation will cause him his life. His breathing turn extremely fast while trying to endure the pain, a lot of blood was slowly dropping from his hands that had been stabbed with the silver swords.
He look into his injury for quite few seconds.
And without wasting any time, Kai closed his eyes, trying to remember the honorific symbol of the lord of silver,while he was searching on her memories, suddenly he found an unfamiliar and familiar memories.
it is a memory of a young boy playing with a red hair girl and a yellow one, there is also a girl with silver hair engrossed in reading a book, she was sitting on the stone, her eyes is extremely bright and adorable.
She wasn't playing with the other kid instead she was studying.
then the young boy suddenly Stumbled on a rock which make him out balance and fell on the ground, the young boy cry for help and a beautiful woman extend its hands on him,she wore a gentle expression on his face while looking at the young boy who's crying. But when the young boy saw her face, his expression instantly brightens, from a crying boy into a cheerful boy greedily hugging the woman.
"Strange, what is that memory?, I never had that kinds of memories in my previous life"
'wait isn't my memories? how could I say I never ha-...'
Suddenly, a sudden realization wash throughout Kai's body, which make him momentary dazed for a few seconds and forget about the pain of his injury in her hands.
I am a transmigrator, a person who live on earth and travel on this world, a person who probably had a memories of a childhood even if it's extremely blurry, but I never even know or see who is those person are in my previous life, so it means that memory wasn't mine, instead it's the memory of another person and there is only one person Kai know who probably owned that memories are.
Kai von azik, the true owner of this body.
Kai felt chill on his body,Then he opened her eyes and murmured in afraid voice.
"The memories of my past life is slowly vanishing, and it got slowly replaced but surely by the memories of the real owners of this body, Kai von azik."
So what will happened if every single one of my memories disappeared?, will I still become the earthling Kai or become kai azik von.
Just by thinking of it, i become even more terrified, becoming entire new person is really scary so what if I just give up and do nothing, wait for the assassin and die?, but i don't want to die I also don't want to become others.
No, no, I need to lived, no I have to live, if my guess is right, I'm not the only one who's being replaced even 'him', so it means we are not really replacing each others, instead were merging to create a new completely different version us which is mix forms of our memories, personality and stuff.
Kai now facing another problems but there's no time to hesitate if he didn't want die then there's nothing to discuss with, he just needs to live and deal with it when he escape on her predicament.
He slowly to spoke reciting the honoric symbol of Lord of the silver, his toned was full of hope after all it's his one and only hope to get out of this problems.
"The Lord of the silver, creator of infinite mysteries and arbiter of enigma, The embodiment of silver city and radiants, The everlasting imagination and illusionary"
"You are above anyone, the bene-.."
Before kai could finished what his speaking with, he got instantly teleported in a place full of shining silver.
The place had 9 silver pillar stoned towering at the height cannot perceived, Infront of Kai there are a staircase leading to a majestic empty throne and a being was sitting in there however Kai cannot perceived or even feel that being, it's like there is existence there and also there's none.
A 9 swords encircling at the back of the empty throne all of them was shining extremely bright, enough to make anyone blind.
Fortunately Kai didn't dare to look directly at the throne or even at the surrounding instead he just lower his heads and kneels Infront of the empty throne, but even so the pressure emitted by the half none existence creature who's sitting at the emphy throne was strong enough to make kai bleed in ears,eyes,nosed, and mouth without him realizing it and it's just mere presence of the invisible entity almost kills him yet the entity is not even spoken any words or he/she even holding back her status,and existence level itself.
He was gritting his teeth and desperately enduring the presence of the entity at the throne.
Suddenly the entity, sitting at the throne smirk a little and it was enough to make the entire place trembled.
And kai feels like, he was about to Burst out and squeeze like a ant, surprisingly he didn't die instead 90% part of his body become silver.
"For a human who's at the 2nd grade being, you managed to stay alive despite being at my presence, your worthy of praised"
The voice is so blurry at the same time it does not contain any emotions,or what, Kai cannot distinguish if the voice was from a man or woman, it's like a emphy voice without any tone, melody, rhymes, stuff and the language is also foreign. But Kai can roughly understand it since the voice was directed at his mind and translated in an instant.
But even so, Kai still feels like her whole mind and soul was tearing apart due to the entity's voice.
I didn't die?, Kai was really surprised because it's stated at the wiki, anyone who hears the true voice a god, they would instantly corrupted and Turning into monster or something related on the power of that god, yet he wasn't died.
Even though Kai cannot see her, he knows that the creature was staring at him with some amused expressions.
"I'm honored"
I said struggiling, given that 90% of my whole body is now a silver and the remaining was bleeding heavily while both my minds and soul is extremely damage.
"Cut the crap, in this whole place or world, I am omnipotent, omnipotence,omniscient, and omnipresent so I know anything/everything on this place even what you truly want to say"
"But you still want me to say it even though you know what the thing I desired, is it your fetish personally? Never mind, alright, I need power and your the only being who could grant me the strength."
Kai said in low toned, but he know even if he didn't say anything, the being Infront of him would still know it, like what he said, he was an absolute on this whole place it means no one could escape from his grasped even what Kai thinking right now so instead of saying it in her head he might as well say it Infront of him in a rude manner after all in her previous life, a lot of mc also talked to a powerful being with disrespectful manner, and they managed to somehow gain its interest.
So he might as well give it a try. even if the chance of gaining its interest is extremely slim however trying wouldn't hurt him would it?
The creature smiled lightly, and he/she slowly spoke.
"So what kind of power do you expect me to grants you or perhaps what kind of status you want me to bestow on you?"
"Power of apostle or rather, the status of a apostle"
The entity was little started.
"Why not become my blessed? Or become favor?, it would surely gives you more advantages and power greater than being a apostle"
"It's not about the benefits I can get, it's about how much power and abily I can exert in a couple of minute and how much abilities I can get"
Even though there are blood flowing from Kai eyes, turning his sclera into color red, but even so, her eyes was still full of determination and unwavering will.
Kai doesn't want to become blessed or become favor by the gods Infront of him because it will not give him the authority to used the whole symbolism of his Gods and the infinite possibilities of ability.
For example, If he is a divine favor, Kai would have divine protection,divine ability, divine passive and divine blessing like the "divine protection of heat", "divine abilities of illusion", and divine passive like "The more you wounds you had, the more powerful you are" and lastly "The divine blessings of being good at cooking" but one person can only had ,two to three of it however the divine passive could only be one and the divine blessings is only few.
While being a divine blessed will give kai a little bit of authority from his Gods. And like the divine favor he'll also gain a divine protection, ability,blessings, and lastly talents, a divine blessed wouldn't be able to gain a divine passive instead he would got the divine talents. For example the divine talents related on swords.
So it would be extremely good if Kai could become a divine blessed or divine favor, when he becomes a apostle of gods, he wouldn't not be able to get even one of those benefits from becoming a divine blessed or favor.
The apostle of a God, could only gain a connection with the God itself and had partial control of his Gods symbolism and authories while also gaining much more divinity than a blessed and a favor could got.
But the most important thing is, The apostle of god can had infinite abilities depends on imagination of its user, meaning, he can create a skill with just his imagination itself so it's really sky's the limit.
There is another one reason why Kai choose it. Because he will gain a status.