Now let's start to summarize everything before I found my self here.
"If I remember correctly before I transmigrated into this world, I was just playing a game like usual then one of my friends in online recommended the "?" (I forget about the name) Novel however before I try to read it, I search it first into the twitter and telegram so I can get an interesting spoiler and some inspiration to read it. Next I search it's fandom and wiki to see the illustration of the character and I also read quite a lot of description about character in "?" Since the character description and stuff was extremely interesting and beautiful, I start reading it however, when I finish the first chapter, an unbearable level of sleepness befall on me so instead of fighting it and read the next
chapter, I just went along with it and sleep.
But when I woke up, I found myself possessing the body of Kai von azik, and fortunately I read the wiki/fandom before I transmigrated here. So I got an extremely high advantage next I prayed on the evil god of emotion but he tries to kill me ...-"
-Next i found myself laying at the bed."
It's pretty much everything I experience I didn't forget something haven't I?.
When I'm done wring the and summarizing my whole experienced, answering one of the few questions I thought.
And then I activate my divinity and turn the whole book into pure silver. So no one could read it if someone would even dare.
I quikly shifted my gazes on the dish at the right corner of table, it is cover with thick layer of silver which is place before I start writing to lock up all of the heat of the dish, I slowly grabbed the plate towards me, staring at the breath taking sight of dishes thT I don't even know what is this dish are, but it's still incredibly fragrant and had amazing looks, I cannot hold it anymore, Kai scoop the foods and he. Swallowed it.
What the?, Kai cannot explain how delicious and mysterious the taste of the foods are. So he scoop and scoop again until it dissipated.
It's delicious but the taste is quite unusual, or I don't recognize it's taste in my past world. Like I cannot really describe it but even so it's still delicious for me.
Thank you for meal.
Before I go on academy, I need to become a grade 3 being and master a sword at the same time magic.
However to increased my realm in just a short span of time is literally impossible, so I need to get that "thing" first.
So I get up from where I was sitting, planning to leave this room and go in library after all, what I need right now is knowledge, not about the future rather about the knowledge in presents, even though I got a memories of Kai von azik, it's still incomplete.
I slowly walked towards the door, the room is not really that big compares on room before.
I opened the doors, and like before the place is still incredibly huge for me the difference is if before the sun is risen but now, it's the moons who's risen.
However I didn't look at it that long just few seconds after all I know what is the true natured of that things is, The moon is a worldification of a Gods itself so gazing in there for even a few seconds, 'he'/'she' would definitely feels it.
The lord of the silver's protection is only applicable in my minds so if I physically say his/her honorific name or symbol and stared at it even for a few minutes, 'he'/'she' would absolutely feels it. After all in the wiki, the Gods is describe as everywhere/ anywhere or in other words, 'he/'she' is 'Omnipresent' at the same time not, because 'They/Them' cannot go in a place where different Gods is not allowing 'they/them' to go. For example if The Lord of the silver didn't alowed a Gods to go in his realms,divine verse, divine world etc. 'they/them' naturally cannot go there no matter what since that place is under the power of Different Gods. But if one's Gods authority,status, existence, divinity, and position is much more higher than the Gods who's not allowing 'they/them' to go there, the Gods can naturally forces there way or corrupting the very concept, principles,law,meaning,reason, cost effect, and existence, turning it into 'they/them' loyal puppets.
Just by thinking of it, I cannot really think any other way to beat or even fight those Gods, like 'they/them' are basically a omnipotent, omniscient, and omnipresent which is describe that if a being possessed this kinds of ability, they are basically infinite in everything.
I sigh a little, thinking about how unfortunate this world for having a lot of outer Gods lurking everywhere, wanting to devoured and destroyed the entire planets into the fabric of existence itself.
I really pity this world, but why does those Gods even wants from this pitiful place?, well in the wiki or fandom, it does not really explained anything.
Well I would probably know about it 'if' I'm still alive until the time I could know the reason.
As I walked in incredibly wide halls, with towering beams, ingraved with different animals that are not familiar with me after all it's a magic beast or animal. while there is a red carpet extending from my rooms and at the long hallway.
In my right sides, there are a lot of doors and rooms, if I remember correctly all of them are guess room and this place where I was staying in is of the three main household of Azik family.
This is the place where my grandpa and grandma live with.
While I was walking, a maid suddenly saw me, his eyes filled with Admiration on me, or rather in my looks, without activating any symbolism, I can directly guess what she was thinking and feelings based on her Movement and stuff.
For example, when she saw me, his eyes directed at my faced so I could somehow know why she stared at me first before bowing her head.
Well for me, I haven't actually saw what is my appearance looks like, I can only remember it, and in the memories, my face is extremely handsome with my build master and deep black eyes, it's not exaggerating if I say I am the most handsome person in the world. Even the mc couldn't compared with.
So I slowly Come closer on him, she becomes flustered and his eyes move backwards, wanting to distance himself from be but.
"Don't move"
"Y-y-yess young master."
When I was extemely closed to him, she said some extremely interesting words.
"Young master, your silver hair is really suits you the best"
"Ah, Thank you?, you also looks beautiful"
I smiled gently, making The maid nervous at the same time her cheeks cheeks turn extremely red when she heard what I said.
"Y-y-y-young master its bad if you keep playing with the feelings of young maiden"
Then she bow his head again and awkwardly walked opposite of me.
While I was embarrassed of what I just said, not because the one I said those words was maid, but because it's not like I am really this play boy, like in my previous life, I am extremely introvert person, I cannot even talked normally with others much more a girls except before I grow tired.
'D*mn, my personality had been mix with that person's personality making me utter those words that would normally embarrassed me to death.'
Also what she said about me, playing with maidens heart? It's not like I'm play-... Never mind, if I remember correctly the owner of this body is a real player having a dozens of girlfriend if not hundred at the same time, however strangely enough, he never crossed the line for whatever reason between the woman and man, so it means I am still a f*cking v*rgin he didn't even love those girls.
Sighhh, why playing with a lot woman's hearts if you didn't want there body or beauty? I guess there is still a lot of mysteries about myself or in him.
But bro?, it's still a lot, for me, who's a virgin in his previous life, that much of girl even exceed my wildest dreams however, for me, one person is enough.
After all I'm tired of dealing with a lot people.
Well in my previous life I'm a loner at the same time not, I cannot understand there jokes, rumors, and logic no matter how much I study about it I cannot just laughed without faking it, I cannot just take there jokes as a joke, I Cannot blends with them without changing the toned of my voice, adapting on there every moods,rumors, expression,jokes and movements. Like if one of them laught, I would also laugh, if they punch me and laugh,I will also punch them and laught, observing them thinking what kinds of joke can make them laught, changing my attitude in every single moments, and by Doing it, I can be friends with them no I can be friends with everyone, by manipulating them, but friends? By manipulating them? It's actually not fun like what I thought it, to be honest, I thought before having a friend could make me feel happy, but it's not really perhaps because I'm using a mask when I'm talking with them, the mask they want to see,the mask that can laugh in there 'not funny' jokes,the mask of a clown who can make the expression they want to see, the mask who can understand them, the mask who can give their ideal friends, the mask who can make them laugh, the mask with completely same rumors, personality, and thinking with them, and not my true self, here I didn't noticed that I created a lot of difference persona with different personalities and stuff for difference 'friends' without even realizing it, I slowly losing my true self and becoming a whole completely different person, a person who contained every single persona I created, the mixture of everything while losing my true self, heh, for the sake of feeling those things, I lost myself. And in the end I also cannot even called them a 'friends'.
After all, it's a friendship created with lies and by manipulating them.
So I grow tired of the 'fake' friends I 'created' and the mask I always wearing to make people please on me.
So that's reason why I become a loner at the same time not. An extremely introvert person but had a mask that can make him extrovert.