I got up and turned to my side, I was expecting to meet peace at my side. I did not find her by my side. My body had ached me from all the cleaning I did by myself yesterday. I did not want to call in the cleaners because they must have been sleeping. I could hear the sound of brooms working ,glass cups fighting , maids bickering and the birds chirping.
The day was as normal as any other day. I wanted to leave but I decided to go down on my knees to pray, it was rather unusual. I know I usually did it out of compulsion.
But my heart was heavy, I wanted to ask God why he had given me such a wife. I cleaned the room and made it fit for a king's visit. A habit that I had learnt from Peace before praying. I knelt down and I placed my arms on the bed. Sands and gravel pricked my arms and I realized that the bed was filled with sand because I forgot to take of my shoes. Again, something that Peace would help me remove when I got to tired too sometimes.
I dusted the bed and was quiet for sometime
" Lord,I don't know why all this things are happening, but throughout the night as I meditated the scripture where we had to forgive so you could forgive us, I don't know how I am supposed to do that. She wronged me, how can I forgive her for what she did to me. I want her to apologize and beg me for forgiveness. She ruined the purity of our marriage. But each time, she keeps saying that she was set up. I am very aware that she had feelings for Luther but I thought I was the only one in her heart after we got married. I really can't believe her. So I decided, I won't forgive her until I see her repentant." I looked up to the ceiling like I expected to see the lord come down through the roof, that would be wonderful, I thought to myself.
" Thank you Lord, I have made my decision"
I got u, freshened up and decided to have my breakfast, a part of me wanted to tell the maids to call peace down. But I did not want her to know that I cared .if she decided not to eat, I would not disturb her.
"Stephen, has Grandma, aunt and Grace gone home?"
" Yes sir"
Peace
I could not sleep throughout the night, anytime I closed my eyes to eat, I could hear the voices of grandma, Grace and aunt kicking me and shouting at me.
" You whore!"
" kill this adulterer"
" She talks about How much she loves God, how can she be so shameless, I know that God hates her now"
Grace was just laughing hysterically while hitting me, aunt spat on me while kicking me and grandma was the one saying all the words I heard.
All of a sudden, the kicks stopped and I saw Thane, our background became flowery and he walked towards me and he carried me. I felt safe and warm. Then he looked into my eyes and then the feeling of warmth turned gothic. The white in his eyes turned black and all of a sudden it started to bleed.
Our surroundings became grey and dim. I realized that it was not Thane. I struggled to remove my hands but it seemed to have been sealed. I looked down and there was a mountain cliff right in front of us.
All of a sudden, the man carrying me let go of me and threw me of the cliff" DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!"
" Nooooooo!" I woke up and I had a very serious headache, I got up fatigued and tired. Yesterday felt like a dream. I wished it was just a dream. It was all to painful and traumatizing to accept as reality.
I got up and went to the mirror. I nearly could not recognize myself in the mirror. I was shocked by how fluffed my eyes were. I had been crying anytime I remembered just a second of all that happened.
Was I going to live in a nightmare all over again?
I wanted to pray but I could not, I felt so filthy and unworthy. i decided to just wash my face and try to apply some make up so I could look better while going to meet Thane for breakfast.
I shook as I powdered my face, and I had cried countless of times till I decided to stop so that I would stop ruining my generic make over.
I came down slowly down the steps, maybe this morning he would want to hear me out.
I brought out the chair so I could sit down. He looked up at me and went back to eating. I started taking in spoons but it were oat grains per spoon, I did not feel like eating but I had to. Thane would not like me to just stare at him doing nothing.
" Did you think that putting on make up would solve the issue, do you think I am interested in how you look. Do you think it would solve anything?"
I looked down and fiddled with my nails and I forced myself not to cry, but my nails outlines became blurry.
"I am sorry"
" Do you admit you were not set up and you slept with your ex best friend willingly?"
" Thane…I did not!" I looked into his eyes with tears about to slip out. I knew he was trying to understand me but the image kept on playing in his head.
"Oh yes of course, keep lying. I am done here"
"You don't have to bring lunch for me to my office, let me save you the stress of having a husband you are loyal too" he got up and left.
Just like that…