I don't know what has gotten into me. Ever since he started talking to my best friend frequently, I've been feeling different. I started to study his music tastes, and wanted to know him. I observed from a distance, never directly interacting.
He liked C-pop, people like Jay Chou or JJ as his favourite classical C-pop artists. Also people like Z.Tao, Luhan, and TNT.
The one that struck me most was:
The quiet air is too sensitive, air is too sensitive
This anxiety is like it's contagious, like it's contagious
Such a beautiful day, beautiful yet so off.
It makes me, so, uneasy
It stuck with me. One of my other friends also liked it. It hits the spot with our relationship really.
2023 I over-streamed I Don't Understand But I Love You. IDUBILU was my favourite SVT song, performance unit really slayed it.
Later that month, I got Achieved on an internal. He also did, I felt amazed. He was practically third in class at maths, but got the same grade I got.
I was unsure if I should be happy or not. At least I got a chance to strike up a conversation with him.
He shrugged me off, and roasted me. He's super mean and alpha male that year.
Late 2023 he changed a lot, my friend really managed to alter his personality. I was right about the shitty personality caused by isolation.
Good news he's less shitty. Bad news, it wasn't cause of me. "It makes me, so, uneasy."