Fred soon after stopped with us in town, we had been forbidden to go
out together, without permission, but we did, and met a boy bigger than
either of us, who was going to bathe. "Come and see them bathing," he
said. My father had refused to take me to the public baths. Disregarding
this, Fred and I paid our six pence each, and in we went with our
friend; we did not bathe, but amused ourselves with seeing others, and
the pricks of the men. None, as far as I can recollect, wore drawers in
those days, they used to walk about hiding their prides generally, with
their hands, but not always. I was astonished at the size of some of
them, and at the dark hair about them, and on other parts of their
bodies. I wondered also at seeing one or two, with the red tip showing
fully, so different from mine. All this was much talked over by us
afterwards, it was to me an insight into the male make and form. Fred
told me, he had often seen men's pricks in their fields, and in those
days, living in the country as he did, I dare say it was true, but I
don't recollect ever having seen the pricks of full grown men, or a
naked man before in my life.
It must have been in the summer of that same year, that I went after
this to spend some days at my aunt's at H...ds...e..., Fred's mother.
We slept in the some room, and sometimes got up quite at daybreak to
go fishing. One morning Fred had left something, in one of his sisters'
rooms and went to fetch it, though forbidden to go into the girls'
bedrooms. The room in question was opposite to ours. He was only partly
dressed, and came back in a second, his face grinning. "Oh! come Wat,
come softly, Lucy and Mary are quite naked, you can see their cunts,
Lucy has some black hair on hers." I was only half dressed, and much
excited by the idea of seeing my cousins' nudity. We both took off our
slippers, and crept along through the door half open, then went on our
knees! But why we did so, to this day I don't understand, and so crept
to the foot of the bed, then raising ourselves, we both looked over the
footboard.
Lucy, fifteen years old, was laying half on her side, naked from her
knees to her waist, the bed-clothes kicked off (I suppose through heat),
were dragging across her feet and partly laying on the floor; we saw her
split, till lost in the closed thighs, she had a little dark short hair
over the top of her cunt, and that is all I can recollect about it.
Mary-Ann by the side of her, a year younger only, laid on her back,
nacked up to her navel, just above which was her night-gown in a heap
and ruck; she had scarcely a sign of hair on her cunt, but a vermillion
line, lay right through her crack. Projecting more towards the top,
where her cunt began, she had what I now know was a strongly developed
clitoris; she was a lovely girl and had long chestnut hair.
Whilst we looked she moved one leg up in a restless manner, and we
bobbed down, thinking she was awaking; when we looked again, her limbs
were more open, and we saw the cunt till it was pinched up, by the
closing of her buttocks. In fear of being caught, we soon crept out,
closed the door ajar, and regained our bedroom, so delighted that we
danced with joy, as we talked about the look of the two cunts; of which,
after all, we had only had a most partial, rapid glimpse.
Lucy was a very plain girl, and was so as a woman. She had, I recollect,
a very red bloated looking face as she lay (it was so hot); she it was,
who in afterlife my mother cautioned about leaving her infant son to a
nursemaid.
Mary-Ann was lovely. I used afterwards to look and talk with her,
thinking to myself: "Ah! you have but little idea, that I have seen your
cunt." She was unfortunate; married a cavalry officer, went to India
with him, was left at a station unavoidably by her husband, who was sent
on a campaign, for a whole year; could not bear being deprived of cock,
and was caught in the act of fucking with a drummer boy, a mere lad.
She was separated from him, came back to England, and drank herself to
death. She was a salacious young woman, I think from what I recollect
of her, and am told, was afterwards fucked by a lot of men; but it was a
sore point with the family, and all about her was kept quiet.
One of Lucy's sons, in after years, I saw fucking a maid in a
summer-house: both standing up against a big table; I was on the roof.
Many years before that, I fucked a nurse-maid, she laying on that table,
in the very same summer-house, as I shall presently tell.
Fred and I used to discuss the look of his sisters' and mother's
cunts, as if they had belonged to strangers. The redness of the line
in Mary-Ann's quim astonished us. I do not recollect having even then,
formed any definite notion of what a girl's cunt was, though we had seen
the splits, but had still, and till much further on, the notion that the
hole was round, and close to where the clitoris is, having no idea then
of what a clitoris was, though we had got an Aristotle and used to read
it greedily; the glimpse of the two cunts were but momentary, and our
excitement confused our recollections.
Fred and I then formed a plot to look at another girl's cunt; who the
girl was, I don't know, it may have been another of Fred's sisters, or
a cousin by another of my aunts, but I think not; at all events she was
stopping in aunt's house, and from her height, which was less than that
of Fred and myself, I should think a girl of about eleven or twelve
years of age. I scrupulously avoid stating anything positively, unless
quite certain. Some years afterwards when we were very young men, we
did the same thing with a female cousin (but not his sister), as I shall
tell.
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