I always wondered what it would feel like to break through into magic and gain a blessing from the world itself as well as from the element.
The mana of the world as well as the element grants you a blessing for finding out the secrets of your element, your affinity. It was always a foreign concept to me. No matter how much someone can explain about it, the feeling you get when you get blessed by them as if they're alive is something my mind could never imagine without experiencing itself.
After sitting on the ground near the lake of the forest, I let my mind free and started thinking about my ability.
What was it? Was it simply to call the object to me or just make use of mana to do such trivial things?
I thought about the various things I did after awakening it.
Levitating objects to myself.
Crushing them with my mana acting like gravity.
Levitating myself into the air.
Making my mana solidify and whatnot.
But I knew this was just the tip of the Iceberg. I knew it was part of something way bigger than I could ever think of as I'm now.
I could feel that something was calling out to me, I let all my mana out trying to reach it but it felt that it was ethereal, existing yet having no form. It was within my grasp yet so far away. It was such an experience that I could not fully understand what was happening to me.
The surrounding mana started to vibrate in joy or that was what it felt to me. It was calling me, making me part of itself. It was a very warm feeling. Something you would feel maybe in the embrace of your loved one?
It was like I could notice that I'm noticing more now. A paradigm shift; a new way of seeing, so the grass looks greener. Something like that.
After what felt like a few minutes to me, the surrounding mana calmed down like it never did something in the first place. All I could feel was my mana which was more vibrant now as well as I could now understand what I was doing. I found the path that I just started walking without even knowing it.
It felt like the world was guiding me to what my power was.
I now knew what I was doing was not just bringing objects to myself nor was it just me controlling my mana raw.
It was something called 'Telekinesis'. It was the power to move, manipulate or otherwise interact with objects/matter without physical means.
I felt good. Like I just took a long nap. I opened my eyes and inspected my body. It felt more powerful, more spiritful. I glanced at my reflection in the water and felt I looked even better than before.
'Not good, I'll become narcissistic if this keeps going on.
I felt I was on a high.
I tried to calm myself down and check what I could do now that I finally became a first-circle Mage.
I could feel a loop binding in my heart.
'So this is how the concept of the circle arose in magic huh' I thought
I closed my eyes to feel the surrounding around me. In every blessing, you would get a gift or enlightenment as to what you could do with your power. For some people, it would be making water out of air particles for a water mage or being able to connect to nature for a wood mage.
As for me, I could somehow feel what was within a kilometre radius within me. I could feel the animals, the birds, and nature. I could feel their mana. It was like a little map for me where people would be seen as dots.
'This is extremely useful for me, especially for survival and hunting.
I would call this 'Radar' from now on.
The other gift as I would call was being able to generate telekinetic fields or beams that can surround a target and permit the user to move, manipulate and otherwise interact with them.
I aimed my finger towards a tree and tried to fire a 'beam' and a purple light flew from my finger like a laser and destroyed the tree making it seem like it was not even there in the first place.
'This is so damn cool'. I thought. I don't know about what type of gifts First-circle mages get but I felt like mine was special. I never read or knew anything about gifts being able to do this much only on the first circle. I always saw kids being able to form a single arrow or two from their gifts trying to act cool so I was not expecting this.
I played around with my abilities for a little more time before returning to the orphanage. It was around noon and I directly went to my room and started thinking about my next plan. I already became a first circle mage after five months of being able to use magic. Generally, people become the first circle when they're around 12 years old so I'm still a bit far but I was sure I'll be fine.
'I'm technically a mage but still, I don't have any fighting experience, I never studied how to fight nor do I have any survival skills. 'Should I go to a school for this?' I thought but discarded that idea soon. I don't want to be bound up to something like that.
I should first become an adventurer and start earning some money while trying to gain experience and learn from people. I also would have to leave this place soon
I looked around my room and felt sad to leave my only home in this world.
'I'll pay them back for everything they've done for me and every other child'. I thought about remembering how hard Sophie and Ron worked every day without ever asking for anything in return.
It's about time I grow up to become something they could be proud of. Something I could be proud of. I thought as I went over to pack my things.
'I'll leave this place after spending a few days with them. I thought seeing Sophie running after Grace who stole a bar of chocolate from the kitchen from my window. Unknowingly to me, a smile went to my face.