"Sally,how are you my beloved?"
"I'm fine Padre" I answered.
Father Jerome,just like Mama Dorcs,is my most favorite priest right from childhood and since he was transferred to our Chaplaincy I have grown fond of him especially because of his teachings about chastity and importance of being a Godly youth. His love for the youth and his lessons every Sunday during benediction made me concluded that he is the one that will understand my predicament better.
I started by telling him about my fallout withy Mother,the plan to marrye off and how I feel about it,then comes the main reason I was there which is about the unexplainable emotions that is running through me for the past 3hours.
"I'm sure your Mother only mean well for you, remember what the scripture says about obedience? I'm not trying to side with your Mother and yes you are an adult but most times we go astray because of youthful exuberances
, again what you are feeling about your new house keeper is actually very normal but what makes it to be a sin is if you fall to the desires of the flesh,attraction is part of human life and nobody will judge you for being attracted to the opposite sex,so my dear what you are feeling is absolutely normal but then you have to seek God's direction so you don't make mistakes and don't forget to also pray concerning the visitor you are expecting and allow God to lead you towards the right decision"
"Thank you so much, I will do everything you have asked me and pray as you directed,let me rush back home"
"Okay,and ask your Mother for forgiveness also communicate your dissatisfactions to your parents in a calm manner"
This last statement was expected but honestly I'm not ready but I had to agree because why not? He is a priest and he is expected to preach about forgiveness.
"Okay Padre" I answered and I bet I caught him smile,maybe because he knows that I was not ready to be vulnerable especially not before my Mother.
I left immediately taking the easy route back and just as I was passing through the garden, I saw him again and this time he was staring at me .
Oh my God I felt butterflies in my belly and I fought the urge to just run and wrap my hands around his broad shoulders,but alas all my life I have only been thought to keep to myself and I have not much friends and hugging him will be a taboo to my faith but then again I cannot deny the shudder going through my body as I stood looking at him. Oh am doomed,what is happening to me?
"Hello ma'am, I was looking for you" he said.
"Okay"I muttered and ran past him straight to my room.
Immediately I opened the door, I jumped on my bed in a bid to calm my trembling legs which wanted to give way some moments ago .
I closed my eye for some minutes and there he was.
"My sunshine,
I see you,I see the way you look at me and I feel the same way.
Can I kiss you"
I woke up startled and noticed that my thighs were wet and I was sweating.
Holy moly.
I knelt down to pray but I couldn't concentrate because thoughts was filled with the his image.I later
gathered myself and said some prayers and determined to avoid him at all cost before I went down to join the others for dinner.
After dinner, I decided to go outside for some fresh air while convincing myself that it was the air that I really want on my face but then my mind kept reminding me that perhaps I wanted to catch a glimpse of him. Just as I was about to go out I heard my Mother's voice and turned to catch on with what she said." I said hope your Father told you about the visitors we are expecting"
Oh I totally forgot about that l,having occupied my mind with the hot fantasy before me. Though I know it's not right but in all honesty I want to drown myself deep into this beautiful sensation that has taken over my senses.
"Yes he told me and I'm not ready for such commitment" I answered.
"I'm your Mother and I know what is best for you,the person in question is no stranger to you because you already know him"
No no no I hope it's not Chris,Sir Winston's son.
"And who is he if I may ask?"
"Chris" my Mother answered
Hell no! I thought.
Immediately, I saw Leo pass through the garden.
"Alright I agree with your decisions can I go now?
What! Did I just agree to what my Mother said? Anyways I need to receive that air and it's about to pass me by.
"You may leave" my Mother said,
I rushed out immediately heading towards the garden.