My name is Julianna Wilmsley, many people call me Julia or Julie for short. I turned 15 on July 12th, I can still remember the birthday party my mom threw for me, it was such a fun mess.
Half of the school was invited, it was a pool party, full of loud music and scrumptious food.
Everything was fun, Sarina and Sabrina were there, we hung out, we gossiped, etc. The exception of me getting unexpectedly caked in the face, when it was time to blow candles, and almost drowning in the pool, due to some stupid prank.
Can't decide, which one was worse?
As for my looks, from what a guy last year wrote me in a love letter, I got on Valentine's Day last year.
He described me as the, girl of his dreams, with the most " beautifullest coffee brown skin, with brown eyes as innocent as a fawns, and hair as curly as my colored slingie"?
Umm, thank you but I hate poetry, I failed every single assignment on that mind boggling subject.
Although, the last part I took personally, which led me to get box braids this year.
We are now just walking to first period together-, all of us have athletics together, but different sports, Sarina being in swim, me in track, and Sabrina in cross country. -That is until we have an unexpected stopping point.
It's Sarina, she's looking at her crush, staring at him like he's a Greek god, ever so obliviously. I nudge at her, teasing her, Sabrina joining in.
We all laugh it off, but I can't help but hide something behind mine..
I love Sarina, I really do. But sometimes, I wish she'd stop looking at Roman like that, like he's the only guy in the world, like she has a chance.
I shouldn't think that- I know I shouldn't. But every time she gets that dreamy look in her eyes, something inside me twists. Because the truth is, I like Roman too.
More than like him. It all started in the 8th grade, the same time Sarina started crushing on him, except mine was a bit earlier.
Me and Roman had the same language arts class together.
Consider it, love at first sight, I think it was the same for him to. We both were sat at the same table, across from each other, we were always stealing glances of each other, and shy as heck.
Ever since then, I have been 75 percent sure, that he likes me back, but I never told Sarina that. When she told me about her crush on him, my whole world fell apart. I couldn't bring myself to tell her that, I like him to.
It would have caused an argument, and more off, it's against girl code.
I still don't plan on telling her, probably never will, not when she tells me daily how " perfect" he is, how she's sure, he will notice her the way she notices him.
I used to think the same way about a different boy.
It was in 5th grade, his name was Connor West, he had a messed up buzz cut, and wore a buttoned up shirt to school daily, which literally screamed, mama's
boy vibes.
Till this day, I don't understand what I saw in him, why I was head over heels for him. Long story short, I decided to confess my feelings, got rejected, and went home sobbing to my mom.
Either way, that taught me a lot about how feelings don't go both ways.
And Roman? He doesn't even look at Sarina like that.
I glance at him now, standing by his locker, flashing that stupidly charming grin. He's looking at me.
With those gorgeous, blue eyes. We pass by him, but I can still feel his gaze upon me, before I even turn my head to look back.
Our eyes meet, just for a second, it's quick, almost nothing. But, it's something.
I feel sick.
If Sarina, ever found out , it would destroy her. And if I'm being honest? It might destroy us.