Fight & Kiss
Keifer's POV
"Keifer! Where the hell are you?"
My eyes automatically open. It was Honey's voice echoing in my head.
I forced myself to move my head and pain immediately kicks in. I punched my head because of the pain. This is the first time alcohol hit me like this. Or maybe because I don't have a proper sleep.
I shook my head to remove the pain. I got up and walked toward the door.
I even stopped when I realized the door wasn't in front of me.
I forgot!
I'm in a different room. This room's angle is different from mine. I opened my eyes and searched for the door out.
"Keigan! I can't find Keifer!" Honey shouts.
That high-pitched and annoying voice of this woman greeted me the moment I opened the door. But it's better than seeing her cry again.
"Can you shut your mouth?" I said in irritating tone.
She looks at me with an arch brow. "So you're just there? Damn it! Your brother even bothered me!"
She turned her back on me and walked away. I entered my room. I remove my shirt and throw it away. I don't care anymore where it goes.
I also removed my pants and remaining clothes. I entered the bathroom and almost hit my head on the door.
Open your eyes widely, Keifer!
I placed myself under the shower and turned it on. I used cold water to sober up. I need to go to work now... I have to.
Fvck! I don't like what I feel right now. The weird feeling in my chest is dragging my whole body in it. Why does it still feel like there's a hole in my chest?
"Jay... What have you done to me?" I said and started sobbing.
Why am I like this? I'm a man—I should not cry like this just because of a girl and the pain she caused. I shouldn't be feeling like this.
She's ruining me. She's breaking me into pieces, and the worst part is I'm letting her do this to me. Why did I let her? Why am I letting her?
She's the only one who's ever done this to me. I never reacted like this before. Even with Ella, all I felt was anger. Despite knowing that she never loved me.
Is this the price of loving Jay-jay too much?
They say Watsons are not allowed to fall in love, they will turn into a beast. But I'm not turning into one—I'm breaking like shattered glass.
The pain, it's making me feel empty and numb. I don't want to feel like this. But even so, I still want to see her. I badly want to see her.
She's my strength.
Without her, I'm completely weak.
"I love you, my Jasper Jean..."
I ended my dilemma and turned off the shower. I grabbed a towel and dried myself. I walked toward my walk-in closet. I faced the mirror first and looked at the bruises made by Clyde's men. It was now fading.
My stupid cousin is a big pain in my ass. Honestly, he's more fit to be my brother than Angelo. We're alike when it comes to certain things. One of our differences is his constant smiling and the way he looks down on women. He's also better at getting along with other people, business partners or not.
But I'll admit, sometimes I envy him for having too much confidence.
He's not afraid of anything. He even got the CEO position of Watson Enterprise without breaking a sweat.
I grabbed clothes and got dressed. My regular white polo shirt uniform.
When I wear this shirt, I feel like a normal person. An ordinary student—studying, making friends, and falling in love.
Honestly, I could've transferred schools a long time ago. Same with Yuri, but we both chose to stay. I don't know his reason. I just thought maybe he's doing the same thing I am.
Because I want to piss Aries off.
I want to make him see that he'll never beat me. I'm clearly smarter and better at sports than he is. I planned to beat him. But that bastard's smart—he already put us in Section E during enrollment. What's worse, he dragged Felix along too.
He also made sure the board members would ignore us.
They are fools for following Aries.
After completing my attire, I looked at my own reflection.
I look miserable.
I never felt conscious about my looks until now. Jay-jay can't see me like this. I don't want her thinking I got hurt this much.
She'll get hurt too if that happens.
I always end up hurting her. I don't want that to happen again. I tried fixing my hair but I still look the same.
I let out a deep sigh. I looked for a hair comb, but couldn't find any.
I opened one of the drawers to look inside. While rummaging, I found something.
It was a wallet-size picture of Jay-jay.
She's wearing the Sexy Santa Claus costume that she received at our Christmas Party. I printed those pictures she sent me as a souvenir for myself.
I couldn't stop smiling.
Those were the days I wanted to bring back. Because those are the days we could be happy without risking anything.
"My Jay-jay."
I heard a loud knock on my room door.
Sounded like someone wanted to break it.
"Kuya! Are you still there?!" Keigan said while knocking hard.
I put Jay's picture in my chest pocket. I walked over to the door and opened it.
Keigan looked stressed. His hair was messy, and his uniform was unkempt.
"Let's talk," he said.
I turned my back on him and grabbed my bag from the top of the study table.
"Maybe later," I replied with no enthusiasm, walking past him.
"Can you see yourself?!" he shouted, but I chose to ignore him.
I continued walking until I reached Keiren's room door. I knocked and waited for him to open it.
"What?" he said while rubbing his eyes.
He was still in his pajamas. It seemed like my knock had woken him up. I can't believe Keigan didn't wake him up.
"Get ready. You're going to be late for school."
"I'm not going to school. I don't want to go anymore," he said seriously.
I glared at him. "Why? Did I say you could skip? Get ready, or I'll make you," I commanded with authority.
"Big bro Keigan said I don't need to go. He said you wouldn't even notice."
I immediately look at Keigan who's walking toward us. He looks different now. He looks clean and he's wearing his uniform properly now. His hair is also properly comb. He seemed like a different person now.
"Why did you say that?" I asked, trying to remain calm.
"Why not?" he answered in a sarcastic tone. "You're too busy with your girl, looks like you've forgotten you still have a brother."
The way he talks makes me think that he's not Keigan. He sounds completely different now. If it weren't for his face, I would think he's someone else
He suddenly smirked. "Do you really think your girlfriend is loyal to you?"
I felt irritated. "What did you just said?"
"See? You can't even pay attention and this all happened because your head is occupied with your stupid thoughts about her."
"Shut the fvck up Keigan!" I shouted while clenching my fist.
"Why? Afraid to hear that you're not the only man in her life?"
I couldn't control myself anymore. I grabbed his shirt and slammed him against the wall. For some reason, he didn't show any fear on me unlike before. He can still smile while I'm furiously mad at him.
"Don't you dare!"
"More than ten of your male classmates. Most of them are his friend. You think none of them felt attractions to her, especially that
she's the only girl in your room?" He said and smile. "...maybe they're doing something behind your back. Maybe they're fvcking her while you are busy."
"Shut up! Shut up!"
"Why don't you ask your friends? Maybe one of them already claimed her before you do." He laughs. "Maybe one of them already fvck her."
"Don't test my patience!"
He laughs again like he's an evil person. "Can't accept it? How about if all of this is just nonsense? What if Jay-jay has a plan for all of you?" He looks at me seriously. "...maybe this is Aries' doing. Maybe he sent that girl to destroy you all? To flirt with all of you? And you, you fool, fell for it!"
I'm trying to hold my anger. My breathing feels so heavy.
"He doesn't really love you. She's just fooling you like your ex, Ella. She's just going to use you too."
"My Jay-jay will never do such thing!"
She can't do that. She's not that kind of person. She has no reason to do that to me. She would never do that.
"Let me guess, you're convincing yourself now that she will never do
that."
I didn't say a thing.
"I knew it! "You're too late. She already did it—!"
"No!"
"—she already fooled you!—"
"No! Stop!"
"—she's probably already flirting with your friends!—"
"Shut up! Stop!"
"—and the next thing you know? She's already flirting with someone else!"
"STOP!"
I don't want to hurt Keigan. As much as possible, I try to hold back my anger towards him. But I can't control it anymore. His words are making me furious. I am burning with anger.
I punch the wall beside his head. I punch it until it forms a hole. My knuckle is in pain, but it's nothing compared to what I feel in my chest.
I stopped when I saw him with his eyes closed, crying. He was trembling in fear.
"I'm s-s-sorry. W-whatever I said... P-p-please don't believe it. I didn't m-mean to s-say it." He said between his sobs.
I let go of him. What is happening to Keigan? He was different when he faced me earlier. He was different when he spoke badly. And now he's like a completely different person again.
He's done this many times before. I don't understand what's happening.
He sat on the floor crying. He was so scared of me, frozen in place, hugging himself.
What have I done?
I pulled at my hair in frustration. I looked at Keiren, who was peeking at us from behind the door of his room. I could see the fear in his eyes.
What's happening to me? I didn't do this before. I wasn't like this with them.
"I-I didn't mean to Keigan." I said and kneel down beside him.
He tried to squeeze himself against the wall, trying to get away from me. I immediately hugged him. I could feel him trembling. He tried to push me away, but I held him tighter.
"I didn't mean to do that. Please believe me."
"P-please... I-i will n-never do t-that again. Don't s-send me b-b-back to Dad. P-p-please... I don't w-want to be with h-him. H-h-he will hurt m-me a-again." He said, breaking my heart.
He's still carrying that fear. He thought that if he did something wrong, I would send him back to Dad. I've clarified this many times, but sometimes it feels like he doesn't understand.
"Ssshhhh... I won't do that. I won't give you to him. He can never take you away from us." I said, trying to calm him down.
"H-he will point h-h-his gun in m-my head. H-h-he will kill m-me just l-like—."
"No. No. I will never allow him to do that. I won't let him hurt you."
"I w-want Mom. I-i want h-her."
Shit!
"Keigan... Mom is gone. She was killed."
I heard Keiren slam the door. I know it hurts him to hear that. He never had a mother, and now he's lost his father too.
"Keifer!" Someone called.
It was Honey rushing toward us, accompanied by the house staff who looked at my siblings whenever I wasn't around.
"S-sir... Let me handle Sir Keigan." Said one of the maids who approached us.
"Help me bring him to his room." I commanded.
We worked together to get Keigan up. I didn't let go of him while we walked to his room.
He continued to mumble incoherently. When we reached his room, we immediately laid him down and covered him with a blanket.
His body looked so vulnerable. I feel like I've been neglecting them. I haven't been able to take care of them. I'm all they have, but it seems like I'm disappearing from their lives too.
Keigan fell asleep while being rocked by the maid who helped me.
"What is your name?"
She looked at me. "Kate Kristine Joy, sir. I'm the one who replaced the former caretaker of Sir Keigan."
I nodded shortly. "T-thank you for taking care of him."
She smiled at me. I was about to walk out of Keigan's room when I noticed something. There were a few drops of blood on the floor. Now that I noticed it, I looked around and saw scratches on the wall and the wooden door. His things were also scattered on the floor.
"K-kate..." I called the maid.
"Sir?"
"What happened here?" I asked, looking around.
I didn't hear a response from her, so I looked at her. I immediately noticed that her hand was being tightly held by Keigan's hand. He was still unconscious, so it was strange that he was holding her like that.
"I-I don't know, sir. Maybe it's better if we leave him to rest now." She said. "Please go ahead, Sir. I'll stay and watch over him."
I don't like the way she spoke to me, but there's something wrong.
She looks like she's begging, based on the way she's looking at me.
I forced myself to nod and leave. When I stepped out of the room, Honey was there, along with the maids.
"What the hell is happening? And why is there a hole in the wall? Did you do that?" She asked irritably.
"Honey, I need to talk to the maid inside and the previous caretakers of Keigan. Make sure that he won't know anything about it." I said and walked away.
She immediately followed me. "What for? Why don't you answer my question first?"
"There's something wrong with Keigan. The longer this goes on, the more I notice it, and I feel like it's getting worse."
"Are you saying that he's sick?"
"I can't say that for now."
Suddenly, she blocked my way and made me stop walking.
"What's going through your mind? You haven't talked to your brother for a while, and now you're accusing him of being sick." She said in irritation.
"Why don't you talk to him first and find out what his problem is?"
I stared at her for a moment. She's right. It's been a while since I last talked to Keigan. Maybe he has a personal problem. Maybe he's just afraid to tell me.
But I'm not ruling out the idea that he might be sick. Dad came back with Keigan before, but something seemed wrong with him. I try my best to show him that I will never allow anyone to hurt our family again.
Slowly, he started returning to the Keigan I knew, but there's still this lingering fear in his mind that doesn't go away.
"Maybe I will talk to him later after school."
We both continued walking. I headed straight to the Dining Area. I need caffeine to wake up my senses. At least this for now. I need energy before I go to school.
When I got there, I saw Keiren having breakfast. He was already in his uniform and carrying his bag.
"I thought you weren't going to school." I said, grabbing the cup of coffee.
"I don't want to stay here. Kuya Keigan is out of his mind again."
"Keiren, don't say things like that to your Kuya," I scolded him, but he ignored me. "Do you understand?"
"I do," he said without looking at me.
I finished my coffee and waited for Keiren to finish. I'm the one who'll drive him to school. It didn't take long before he finished. After drinking some water, he walked out of the house.
I followed him and made sure to leave Keigan with the maids. I know Honey will also leave soon because she can't stay long at the house.
I helped Keiren get into the car and adjusted his seatbelt.
"I can do it," he said, but I didn't let him.
Once I finished adjusting his seatbelt, I got in and started the car without saying a word.
"Kuya..." he called me. "...Is it true? Dad is a bad person?"
I tightened my grip on the steering wheel. This was the first time he asked about Dad in a while.
"Well, he did bad things," I said. He killed our mother.
"How about Mom? Who killed her?"
A monster.
I cleared my throat. "You're still too young to understand."
He didn't say anything after that until we arrived at his school. I let him get out on his own and just watched him as he entered the school gate.
Before leaving, I made sure all of Keiren's bodyguards were in their positions. I want my brother to be able to move around properly, even with security around. They were surrounding the school, each in different positions. Some of them even worked inside the school. I increased their presence to make sure that my monstrous father had returned.
The same goes for Keigan. His bodyguards are also stationed far enough to let him move freely.
But my situation is different. No one watches over me when I'm in the Philippines. I know that no one will target me here. My father only wants my siblings, and besides, I can defend myself.
When I arrived at school, I immediately parked the car. I was almost late for our first subject. I wonder what that woman would say if Sir Alvin beats me to class again.
I saw Aries and his classmates looking at me like predators ready to attack their prey. I'm not in the mood to give a fvck about him.
But if he's here, then maybe Jay-jay is also here. I need to make up to her. It was completely wrong for me to let my anger take control again. I didn't even listen to her because of the pain I felt.
When I get overwhelmed by anger, my mind just goes blank.
Maybe that's the reason they call us cursed. Because when the people we love hurt us, our minds close off.
I was getting close to the room when I saw Mayo and Kit. They were obviously fighting. They were about to throw punches at each other.
"Stop it! What if someone hears you?" Kit said.
"So what if they hear? Are you scared?!" Mayo shot back.
I don't know what their problem is, but they were blocking my way. They didn't even seem to notice that I was close. Kit tried to walk away from Mayo, but the other one kept pulling him back. I rolled my eyes. They were acting like a couple—
"Do you like Jay-jay?!"
I froze. I couldn't move a muscle after hearing that. Mayo just asked Kit if he liked Jay-jay.
"I don't like her! Just stop it!" Kit said.
"Why did you kiss her?!"
I felt like I couldn't hear anything anymore. He kissed Jay-jay. He kissed my Jay-jay.
All the words Keigan said flashed in my mind. Are my own friends betraying me? Is it worse than what Yuri did? Are they just playing with me? Is she playing with me?
In an instant, everything happened so quickly. I found myself grabbing Kit and punching his face.
And no one could stop me.