"Do you think your sister would be happy if you joined her? God gave you such a wonderful life, why would you want to waste it? I know no one can truly understand ones pain. People that claim to offer their condolences are wishing that they aren't in the same situation as you are, they don't really know the special place you had created for your wonderful sister in your heart, but I know that God does,"
I took a deep breath.."He knows we are in pain, and it pains Him to see us in pain but please don't end your life. There is so much more that He has ordained and called us for. Good and unfortunate things happen to both good and bad people. Life has its ups and downs, why are we always so focused on the bad memories and forget the good ones when adversity comes? Why do we forget that they were days when we laughed out our hearts and merriness brimmed from the depths of our hearts? Why do we think that God is not able to help and rescue us from whatever hardship or challenges we face? I don't know a lot about Him yet but I do know that, I do know that there is nothing impossible for Him."
I didn't know when I started crying , the water was already flooding where we fell so I decided to get up. I wondered why I had been so comfortable with being soaked in mud water and rain droplets and still enthusiastically shouting out these words to him.
We stood up and stared at each other, well, we half stared, since the rain had been beating my eyelids black and blue. The man, he was also staring at me with so much bewilderment and surprise.
"Yes, your sister is in a better place but please, we still need you here, I need you, the world still needs you." I struggled to talk as the rain water entered my mouth.
Looking into his eyes now, he appeared calmer, it was still raining but we didn't care, we just looked into each other's eyes. We got lost.
Wait, wait, wait…Peace you went too far, to ahead of yourself, you need him? I hope he didn't see me as a desperate nosy woman.
"Well, what he thinks doesn't matter to me" I said out loud, I had to fight my thoughts by thinking out loud we both got up and we started discussing under the rain
"I, I…are you talking about m…"
"oh sorry, I said my thoughts out loud..heh" It was still raining and with droplets filling my mouth and my entire face.
I faced my head down and I could count the rain drops dripping down my nose. A dead snake was afloat in the floodwater we stood in and we both panicked and frenzied back to the shop where we took shelter from the rain.
The rain had stopped falling, he seemed more calm and reserved after a few minutes of discussion. He just could not stop expressing himself. He told me that his sister had died of breast cancer. After he had finished explaining, it was like a big anchor had left his chest. Though I wondered if he cast all of his worries and feelings to God this way. I was bewildered, here i was judging him in my mind, he actually was going through a lot, he just needed someone he could talk to.
"I am very happy that you talked to me and stopped me from making the worst mistake I would regret till eternity"
"Oh no, no not really, it was nothing I did of my own accord."
He held my hand softly "you don't have to be humble, I appreciate what you did"
"Actually, it was my best friend that helped me help you"I was trying to act cool, like really, was it normal for my hands to be held by a stranger I just met this way? Was it?
"Jesus again right?"
"Yes! Actually , I thought I was unlucky , I misplaced my keys and I felt like I was being punished by my father for something I did wrong but..."I stood up and climbed the bench , like a little child excited to brag about her papa.
"I realized that my father the divine architect, was looking for ways to help you, I am glad I was used for your sake, I am glad that I was in this phase of your life"
I looked towards him,I closed my eyes and smiled. I opened them and then I looked into his eyes with all seriousness.
"why not be a part of every phase in my life?" he gave a warm smile and a determined stare into my eyes. His smile was encapsulating, I returned his statement with a very awkward smile, I didn't know how to respond.
"Err, excuse me ?" I held a strand of my all back hair and tugged it till his intense stare would leave my direction. He crouched down and bursted into laughter, the laughter lifted up the atmosphere. The sun suddenly became happy and gifted us some of her rays but that didn't appease the skies, it was still crying heavily.
I could asses him perfectly, brown hair ,pink lips that were filled up like peaches, tanned color skin and a small but visible scar on the left side of his face- peculiar to the native eastern tribe of Nigeria, he had a polished ascent that made him seem foreign. A well built physique, he was seven feet tall, seemingly, twice my height.
"Peace ! peace! peace!" his voice rang in my head as he called out my attention.
He got up and turned to me and with a satisfied smile..
"I would be leaving now"