I don't plan on confronting Julianna.
At least I thought. I was walking to my 4th period with Sabrina, that's when I saw her, Julianna.
She was talking to Roman, both of them smiling at each other with glee. I had enough.
I stormed up to her, my blood boiling in anger, fists clenched, Sabrina followed, questing me constantly on what I'm doing.
I didn't answer her, my eyes were on Julianna, as I approach her.
"Wow Julianna", I say, my voice dripping with sarcasm. "Guess you didn't waste any time." Her smile fades, as she turns to me, " Sarina, not here-".
" Oh, but you had no problem flirting with him here?" I cut her off, ignoring the way Roman's eyebrows knit together in confusion. " Unbelievable."
Julianna's expression shifts from guilt to anger. " I wasn't flirting", she says, her voice sharper now. " And even if I was, it's not like you and Roman were together." That stings.
I take a step closer, my fists clenched at my sides. " You knew how I felt about him, and you still-."
" You don't own him Sarina!" She snaps. " You never did!"
I catch my breath.
For a second, everything goes silent. Then, before I know what I'm doing, I shove her.
Not hard, but hard enough.
Hard enough, that gasps ripple through the hallway, everyone's cameras out, they want a fight. The people that were standing near us have backed away, forming a circle around me and Julianna.
Julianna's eyes widen in shock, before they turn into something colder.
I dare her to push me back, to fight, to do something that will justify the anger, and fury burning inside me. But, she doesn't.
Instead, she shakes her head, her jaw clenched tight. " You're not mad at me Sarina" she says. " You're mad that he never liked you back." Everyone gasps, it felt like the air had been knocked out of my lungs.
I hate the fact that she's right, but I'm still withholding myself in denial.
I was about to respond, do something to stop the tears,stinging my eyes. I look towards Roman who was by standing this entire situation. His beautiful blue eyes gleamed under the bright school light, as usual.
He looked disappointed in me, for doing what I did.
I couldn't help but feel ashamed of that thought…. So instead, I just walk away, again.
Sabrina follows behind me, yelling at me to wait, but I don't even dart an eye back.
My surrounding are in a blur, from the tears welling up in my eyes. I can't think straight, my entire mind has gone blank, I feel lightheaded, tears streaming down my cheeks.
People are watching me, as I walk down the hall of shame, some even whispering to each other.
How humiliating.