I feel the shift before I even see her. The air gets heavy, like something's about to happen, and then I hear my name.
" Sarina's coming over here" a girl sitting in front of me says.
I barely have time to react before she's right in front of me, her eyes burning with something between rage and devastation.
I rise up from my seat, making our eyes meet at the same level.
" You lied to me."
My stomach drops, I glance around, we're in the middle of the cafeteria, and people have already turned their attention to us.
" Sarina, what are you-"
" You talked about me to Roman", she cuts me off, her voice sharp. " What did you say?"
I swallow hard, I open my mouth, but nothing comes out. She found out.
" You talked about me to Roman", she repeats, her voice sharper now. " What did you say?"
My face drains of color, I look around, hoping to search for a way out, but there isn't one. Not this time.
People are already watching. The whole cafeteria has gone quiet, I start to panic. I look towards Sarina, to see if she notices what this is causing right now. But, she doesn't seem to care, almost as if she wants them to hear this.
" Sarina just- just calm down", I say, my voice barely above a whisper.
She laughs, but there's no humor in it.
" Oh, I'm perfectly calm" she says, as she approaches closer to me, causing me to flinch. " I just want to know why my best friend, thought it was okay to talk bad about me behind my back."
I clench my jaw. " I didn't-"
" Then why are people saying you did?" She raises an eyebrow at me, crossing her arms over her chest. " Why is everyone whispering about it? Why does Roman suddenly think he knows me better than I know myself?"
I glance at Roman, who was all the way across from where me and Sarina are face-to-face. He looks at me with discomfort, his eyes read out, what's going on? His football friends are also looking towards us, nudging his arm as if they want him to enjoy whatever is going to happen next.
I return my focus to Sarina, who is standing in front of me, her eyes demanding an answer.
I swallow hard, again. For a second, I think about denying it.
But then, " I just told him you get… jelous." It's barely a whisper, I look up at her, she looks pale, as if her whole world just shattered into a million pieces.
" You what?" Her voice raises a little, I hold myself back for a moment, but reading her face, all in all shows that she demands I say more.
" I didn't mean it like that" I say quickly. " I just didn't want him to feel bad about-"
" About choosing you over me?" She finishes. I don't answer.
Sarina's face softens, now there isn't any anger in it, there's just pure melancholy.
Her hands start shaking, I can tell she is holding back tears. Sarina has always been an obedient person, she doesn't allow herself to cry easily, especially in front of people.
I draw closer to her, reaching my hand out for her arm, " Sarina..", but she backs out.
" You were supposed to be my friend, Julianna" she manages to say, though I can hear the absolute sorrow in her voice, but she keeps going.
" You didn't just like the same guy as me- you made sure he saw me as the jelous, insecure one. You made me look pathetic." Those last words hit me hard like a brick, my guilt was building up inside of me.
" Sarina, I swear I wasn't trying to-" she steps back, shaking her head. Then she says the words I never thought that she would say.
" I'm done", and just like that, she shoves past me, I hear gasps. I look back at her, only to be looking at her back. What have I done?
She gone.
People are staring, whispering, looking at me like I'm some villain in her story. Maybe, I am.
I feel like I'm going to fall backward, until someone grabs me by my elbows
Roman.
I look up at his face, his eyes meeting mine. He's shaking me, asking constantly, " Julianna, are you okay?", " Jules, can you hear me?". I don't answer to any of his questions.
Instead, I fall back to my seat, and grab my head in my hands. Roman sits down by me, his hands still on my elbows. And pulls me towards his chest.
I can feel his heartbeat, its slow, and soothing, it calms me down a bit, but my mind is not able to escape the unfortunate event that just happened.
I didn't mean for this to happen, I didn't mean for it to go this far. But it did, and now? I might've lost her forever.