I slowly watch them disappear into the distance, and the bus soars high along the highway. I slowly let go of the distant scenery, wiping my tears, I leaned against my seat, looking up at the sky, which was already dark.
I look at my watch and smile a little, seeing it's past midnight, I hope they get back home safe and sound.
With the bus on the route, I fought hard to catch sleep, but it was hard, seemingly now as the bumpy ride and uncomfortable seat had me wide awake.
Instead, I leaned my head against the window as I looked up admiring the sky filled with stars, the more out of the city I was, the clearer the sky was with twinkling stars.
I opened half of the window, enjoying the breeze.
'I said...let go.' I blinked, finding a pair of eyes looking at me, wondering what was going on. I gasped when I felt a pair of hands grabbing mine and pushing me away.
'Run...' I heard him whisper, his voice already ragged and shaky.
'What?' I ask back, trying to make out the face which was very difficult to see, 'I will not... b-be able to control... leave!' He says, yelling the last word, I couldn't find myself moving away from the man who seemed to be struggling alone.
Is he drugged? That was all I could think of, seeing him all sweaty and in pain, lying down so weak and vulnerable.
'L-let me help..." I stuttered, finding my throat dry, I couldn't help but feel drawn to him.
He grunts, closing his eyes shut while my breath comes off quickly, making it hard to think straight.
I tried to hold him up on his feet but couldn't. His body had no strength to keep him straight, and I obviously couldn't help him up with how different our sizes were. He was considerately bulky, his muscles could be felt under the shirt.
God, this isn't the time to fantasize about him, dear lord.
I yelp as his body weight pulls us both down on the ground, abruptly with me on top of him. I was supposed to get up, but I froze, breathing deeply as I stared into his orbs, drowning me in them.
'I warned you...' He mumbled just when his words sank inside my head, I felt it. His hard bulge against my thighs to know I messed up, didn't I?
Freaking out, I tried to pull myself away but he was stronger enough, pulling me onto him as our lips crashed.
Uh, I should have pushed him away and run, but... why am I kissing him back?
Just then, my eyes opened because the bus came across a speed breaker, which jolted me out of the dream, and time flew by without my knowledge as I had fallen asleep briefly. The presence of a man I was getting intimate with made me nervous.
Why, all of the days, today?
How come I just dreamed of the man, getting intimate with the man so vividly that I still am feeling so flustered? And why is my heart beating so fast?
I checked the time, and it was almost half past three, which meant I was close to my destination. The sudden realization made me squirm with nervousness, I couldn't figure out why this place made me so anxious. Maybe it's just the dream and the place affecting me.
I remember how I was almost dead then, it happened a few years ago and I don't have a clear memory of what I had gone through the whole night, I just see some of the fragments I remember in my dream while the rest of the pieces are either nightmares or just some hazy freaking memories.
As I was lost in my thoughts, I felt my gut-wrenching, a dull feeling made me more anxious. Is it because I was going back to the place that had haunted me?
Maybe because I have been running away from this thing for so long, I no longer want to run away. I need to know what happened then and how I survived.
I remember part of being involved with someone, who was that person? And why can't I remember him?
I have lots of inquiries, and this place is the only one that holds all the answers for me.
Suddenly, the bus jerks, stopping instantly, with people screaming, which scares me out of my head. I look around, trying to figure out the source of chaos.
I slowly raised my head and tried to see ahead through the heaps of heads before me. I could hear growls and some people shrieking in fear, but slowly I figured out something that seemed to be animals, wolves!
But what surprised me was a group of three wolves attacking one that was struggling to keep up with the others. I felt bad for the wolf, whatever it is, violence is a bad thing, and here one was outnumbered by three.
Slowly as the driver gains composure, he honks, distracting the wolves and slowly inching closer to drive past, I eyed the wolf beneath and suddenly I felt my eyes meeting, the freaking eye contact had my breath stuck in my throat.
What is wrong with me?
Suddenly I had the urge to do something, anything. I don't know why I am growing so protective of the wolf. Ah, maybe my guilty conscience is acting up.
I grew angry when I heard the wolf howl in pain as one of the three bit the leg while the victim wolf had his eyes on me. Or the bus?
This is so crazy!
All of a sudden, with my eyes catching my bottle, I raised it straight towards the wolves, as the bus was almost over the scene, I was closer to the wolves and I threw my bottle, which hit the wolf in the middle, holding the victim wolf down on the road.
Suddenly, with the injured wolf howling in pain and getting distracted, the wolf from beneath sprang up and bit hard on the injured wolf's neck, which had me gasp.
Frightened, I clutched my bag and leaned back in my seat, biting my lips as I couldn't make sense of what I had just done. As I took a deep breath, looking towards the front, I saw some people eyeing me weirdly before they scurried away to their places upon meeting my gaze.
I felt embarrassed.
Oh my god…. I am going crazy.
So fucking crazy!
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"It's crazy, right? I mean, I don't know why I reacted like that." I say expressing the torment within me as I walk inside the apartment after making sure the location is right.
"Are you sure? Wolves?" Amana asks, a little hesitant and baffled, which surprises me, but I shrug it off, "Yup. I even lost my favorite bottle… I don't know what got into me." I heave out a sigh as I look around, scanning the place.
"Um, why is the house so empty?" I mumble, "Oh, I forgot to mention to you, that apartment is kind of for frequent sale… It's kinda business done by my distant aunt, so… currently maybe she kept no one?"
Amana speaks while hearing me, but all confused, I question, "So?"
"Right now, you might be by yourself, or someone might be residing with you. " Amana says it makes me happy with the thought of sharing the apartment by myself, but there still is the possibility of having someone residing with me.
If this flat often remains for sale, that means I can rent it too instead of having to crash into it just because I am indirectly referred or related.
"Then, I should look around and make sure of my company. I will talk to you later." I say, hearing a firm hmm from Amana as I end the call, placing my phone in my coat pocket, I leave my suitcase in the living room as I scan the now-my-apartment with excitement.
"Hello?" I called out loud, wondering if someone other than me was present, all I could hear was my breathing, footsteps, and the clock ticking.
I felt a sudden tingle inside me as I grew happy with having the space for myself but then Amana said the landlord frequently left the room for rent, at least I shall enjoy the safe space while I can and inquire about the rental system.
I jump around, happily.
I scan the room and walk further down to find two different rooms, sure it's to accommodate two people. I wish they were here, we would be so happy and well settled, forcing out a smile I figured to select a room, a better one.
The excitement of having the room kept me off of the incident that happened and even the new piece of memory being unlocked through the dream.
Will I come across the man again?
What if I can't recognize him?
Do I know him? Or not?